HuGe 'n' ChUnKy!

2007-09-11T07:52:00.000-07:00

wow. i have not been blogging for like months. maybe i din know wat to blog, i have just ended my exams and now i am having holidays. just now i was talking to eunice and she asked me to blog.. so i blogged but actually i have nothing in mind to blog. but i am damn happy! my bday coming.. like 20 sept..ahah. hope to be legal soon so i can club! but that wasn't the main purpose of being legal. it actually marked something in my life that i have lived in this world for 18 yrs. having a happy family and getting everything that i want. lord, thanks for everything. like i have my family and friends beside me and also my teacher is also guiding me throughout my teenage yrs. um. i hope lord i can grow in u and have more faith and stand strong..

lord thanks for everything. give thanks. lovess

2007-07-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

Damn bored! Now is 12.04 pm noon, i am just waiting for school to start. i am not suppose to blog now as i actually have some thing to do but haiya.. wanna relax for one day! These few days i am damn tired and stressed out by the presentation for business communication. Luckily we have presented yesterday, if not this night mare will continue till don't know how long!.I am really struggling with accounting so i am damn scared. Never have been so scared, for a particular subject. My live is so boring, and the worst thing is that i can't go overseas in September holiday! SHARKS, because i have to retake the stupid English exams! Thinking of it really make me mad!
i shall peace out now. Byeeee

2007-07-20T11:45:00.000-07:00

um.. today i went through some people's blogs.. i suddenly went to sherlyn's one? don't know why so random. i know that usually she seldom blog stuff but u know just for the sake of curiosity i went to take a look. ANYWAY, i found out that 1 june she blogged things that are unhappy. i know why she is unhappy.. and i dunno why that makes me feel sad.. i think that was me? that only real reason that i think was me was just by instinct. i know her for six years thus just have the feeling that i think i made her unhappy, esp, at that point of time..WHITE LIES. haiz. i seriously don't know what that i did not say to trying to keep it from her. seriously i forgotten already. i might have disappoint u(sher). i am sorry. if u wanna hear my explanations please u can ask me. i wanna say but as ur character i think i have been marked down very much. JUST HAVE THE FEELING LA. that time u said that i was down the list of friends that you were disappointed with. i am sad. i promise i will try to change.
sher. i hope this entry will really let u changed ur point of view abt me.. as much as i wanna get close to you and tell you stuff..i think u should have the basic trust in me..
no doubt that entry have been very long alr. it has been a month or even longer but still i wanna clarify. if this thing is over. then lets not talk abt it.

2007-07-15T10:43:00.000-07:00

hey. haha. i feel like a fool. HEY FOR WAT? siao.. anyway i have no mood to blog these few days. the lastest thing that i wanna share was i made a friendship ring with my friend REBEKAH!! LOVE HER TO THE MAX. even though she don't study the same school as me, i still meet up with her and we remained the same relationship. we both made a promise saying that we will not end our friendship. i know that at times our time table clash but still. i love her till the max.

msg to rebek..
hey babe, i know that we are in different school now. even though our sch are next to each other, both of us usually have different timing of classes. none the less, i still wan to meet u and talk to you. many stuff i wan u to be one of the first to know but u are busy and its very bad to call and interrupt u. i hope u will call me often.. i will never be tired of initiating.. but when the times come, then it will be very sad. i love u very much(as a friend), and i can't express myself in front of u.. maybe u don't think so but u know i will be there for u!! u always can call me..when u said that for now.. u only close to me and ur clique.. plus march.(as in for secondary sch mates la). i was damn touched. i was happy but my happiness is hidden. u every time say that i am very close to my clique.. is not that. u are really consider one of my close friend too.. like i know i no need to say, u also will understand? yeah.
my deepest love and regrets.. love.

2007-06-26T08:51:00.000-07:00

Anyway i have not been doing anything for pass month.slacking is my greatest hobby now.HAH. Anyway i am reading a book. some chinese erotic book. but the storyline is very nice. the author is very good as i can sense the torment in the author's heart. lately i am damn tired, just got back from HK. at first i thought of writing down all my thoughts but i guess i wun because i am not in the mood. Someone is pissing me off.
bibi.. peace out.

2007-06-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

hey gonna club like maybe in 4 hours time? not excited at all simply because i have been clubbing like almost every week.Eunice is at my house, swaying like no body business.anyway i met Rebekah a few days back and i am damn happy that we are going to buy a same pair of shoes and also we are gonna make a friendship ring. we know that we are going to have this friendship forever right? HORS REBEKAH?. two nights back i went cycling with ying. aw my finger hit on to the rubbish bin, now swollen already..
next i wanna say is my results going to come out soon. i am damn scared, i really hope that i can pass every subject and i do not need to retake, so that i am able to fly to HK and shop.
anyway thats all bye~~

2007-06-04T20:13:00.000-07:00

After exams already, should feel less stressful but i don't know what and why the pain is coming back. Hate it totally.. Ying when overseas.. Eunice and others are having exams.. I just went out with Sherlyn yesterday.. i feel so sick at home.But i also don't want to go out because i am scared to aggravate the pain. Actually nothing to blog about.. But i just want to thank those people that prayed for me yesterday because last night i was really in pain and friends from SIM called or even messaged me to get well soon and to see a doctor.I know that Sherlyn called them and i am thankful as at that point of time i need someone to pray for me. Eunice also messaged me and ask me to take care. Can u see how bored am i? Haha.. anyway i love the feeling of boredom thus cannot blame others. I will soar when i am ok..
peace out.

2007-05-22T19:18:00.000-07:00

Ying kept asking me to blog, finally have the mood to blog now. I go to school today because i find it redundant. Sorry lecturer.HEhe. I just viewed someone's blog, and is kind of pissing off because i don't understand why someone can be soo naive. Waiting for someone who doesn't love her anymore.. kept pondering over her pain but it was all past. She kept using all those vulgarities, she thinks she very great? Sorry that i have commented so much even though i don't even know you but seriously i think you should wake up, life doesn't evolve only around men. Exams are coming and can you believe it that i haven started studying. Oh my, i think i am dying. I really wish that i will pass all my subjects.
Messages to friends.

Rebekah-
Hey i know that when you have time you will view my blog. I really wanna say that i still treat you as my very good friend, even though we may not be in the same school.Hope to see you soon, and i really wish that it will not be a burden to you because you seems to have lots of friends in nee ngee poly. Remember that we will be friends forever?.Yeah. Hope we can keep our promises.

My gang-
Hey girls. *alphabetical order* Eun, Ying and Sher.
Even though we have not been meeting up..( not referring to sher.. hehe) i think we have a stronger ties.
Eunice, both of us have gone through many things.. like getting together, breaking up, prank calls during O levels.. i never though that i would be so close to you so hope our friendship would last as long as ever. REMEMBER EVEN THOUGH U HAVE JOEL DON'T YOU EVER DARE TO FORGET ABT ME OKAY?. HAHA. KIDDING.
Ying, i am staying in the same hood as you so meeting up is easier. Whatever i wanna say to you, i would say to you directly. But i really hope that you will be as pure as ever even though u get into la salle. we have gone through alot too. like jeh, " matchmaking "(hehe not really..but still) both of you, your breaking up makes me ache soo much. But u are a strong girl, u are able to get over it so fast that i was soo amazed by it.
As for sher, i am in the same school and class but she is still the same, never show her feelings but i somehow get to know how she feels maybe because i claims that i am very sensitive and i will try to read between the lines when she tries to say something. Sher you are the only person that has the same fate as me because we both are still single. Hope that you will get your one and only soon. Hehe. Try to show more of your feelings and maybe you will see a different side of you.
Hashie.
Haha.. i know that you may not read my blog but never the less i will wanna give you some advice. Forgetting about Ian law is kind of impossible because you kept mentioning him but try to move on.I know you can do it because of your high sex appeal you can get a better one easily. Hahaha.
To all my smss friends..
I really miss those days that we were together in the same class, i love our class its small and united. Hope to have more gatherings so to see the changes in everyone. MISSING THE TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER BUT IT WILL NEVER COME BACK SO I CHOOSE TO LOOK FORWARD.
Sim friends..
Hey you all are a great bunch of friends and i am really very fortunate to get to know you all.
I was once lost but now i am found. My tears are changed into joy and laughter.

*thats it man! my hands are aching because of the badminton session we had, more to say but i will leave it next time, which is months later..ahhaah..*
learning a old song.. yi ge ren sheng huo.. damn old but its very nice.!!
ANYWAY BIBI. PEACE OUT!!

2007-05-06T23:25:00.000-07:00

school has been a hassle for me, being in the new environment should be hard for me but this time surprisingly it was not . i had made friends that came from everywhere and also they are people who speaks Chinese which is my forte. i love being with them. without them i think i wouldn't be who am i today, the cheerful "bam bam"( a guy who called me that.. soo cute right?) anyway my hobby, singing, i think i have neglected it and i hope to find the " feel" back. back to school is not an easy task for me because i am used to the night life and now i need to wake up early in the morning or school. i am stressed too but i believe those students that came from different secondary schools are also struggling. RELAX is the word that i can calm myself down. after staying in the hospital for 2weeks i realized that stress really cost a lot. i realized that i had spent 10 k for the stupid hospital bills.
i had learned my lesson, stressing out myself did not change the results, work hard for it and don't ever regret.
talking about clubbing, haha, i have been going but not as often as last time. i think is fun but i guess its time for me to stop. haha. stop dancing? no way..i really like the atmosphere and the music. i think the only thing that i can promise not to do is not to drink. i am very thankful for my parents as they really trust me. i will never betray their trust.
lots of love..
pam pam. peace out.

2007-03-16T12:38:00.000-07:00

Now is really late but after reading someone's blog i feel like blogging. I just came back from hong kong and i think is a nice experience and i really enjoyed the trip.I have told through what someone have said and i really thinks that love is not obession but is sacrifice..I think that i have grown very much after so many things happened to me. After reading your blog i was very touched but at the same time i felt very guilty because i can't reciprocate the love. I have thought through and as much as i wanna proceed, i can't. I think u know why too. U know me very well and i think that i also know u quite well even though we don't really know each other very long but one fact is our lifestyle is totally different and it will be very hard for u to get use to my way of living.To you i have really nothing to say expect sorry. Thanks for all your love and concern that u have showered me and i know that our friendship will defintely last. I am very grateful to have a friend like u as u really consoled me when i was totally stressed out and u are there for me whenever i need u.Since u wished me all the best i shall also wish u all the best and hope that u will find someone better.Because i always believe that the next one is better.
peace out. bibi.

2007-01-16T06:50:00.001-08:00

hahha. i have not been blogging like.. soo long.. and this blog is like totally dead.. what happen to my O levels? what did i do after Os.. i din even write in my blog.. maybe i think i have changed.. changed to become a person that says more than i write..yup.. finish my Os.. i have like been through alot.. like trying to adapt to the new environment and stuff.. gonna move house.. gonna be in a new sch.. gonna see new ppl.. bound to be someone that dun really like me.. i am missing all my friends.. my old maid and my tuition teachers.. what can i do man.. i hope that i can nv grow old.. stay stagnant.. right at this age..
i haven been sick of clubbing.. which is a good thing.. because i think god has his way to make me feel sick.. i am working.. working at tangs as cashier.. i love this job even though i will grumble about it but still i love counting money..haha.. money minded?!. i have been working for like 1 and a 1/2 months already.. not bad.. i know a lot of new friends.. damn happy leh..
haiz the saddest thing is i am still single.. yes single.. so happy.. i really dun have high hopes on having someone that love me more than i love the person.. wat a sad thing. but i am really waiting for my one and only.. really last time i thought one and only is so ' outdated' haha or 'unglam' but now i know why should be the one and only.. because then the chances of u getting hurt is very little...anyway this few months i SORT OF liked somone before.(complexed feelings cannot say like..). but then it din turn out well.. nvm.. i am over it..long over it.. i am soo happy that i din dwell on it..
anyway i should really end here.. bye..
peace out.. song recommendation:quite an old song but is I'm good by blaque

2007-01-16T06:50:00.000-08:00

hahha. i have not been blogging like.. soo long.. and this blog is like totally dead.. what happen to my O levels? what did i do after Os.. i din even write in my blog.. maybe i think i have changed.. changed to become a person that says more than i write..yup.. finish my Os.. i haven like been through alot.. like trying to adapt to the new environment and stuff.. gonna move house.. gonna be in a new sch.. gonna see new ppl.. bound to be someone that dun really like me.. i am missing all my friends.. my old maid and my tuition teachers.. what can i do man.. i hope that i can nv grow old.. stay stagnant.. right at this age..
i haven been sick of clubbing.. which is a good thing.. because i think god has his way to make me feel sick.. i am working.. working at tangs as cashier.. i love this job even though i will grumble about it but still i love counting money..haha.. money minded?!. i have been working for like 1 and a 1/2 months already.. not bad.. i know a lot of new friends.. damn happy leh..
haiz the saddest thing is i am still single.. yes single.. so happy.. i really dun have high hopes on having someone that love me more than i love the person.. wat a sad thing. but i am really waiting for my one and only.. really last time i thought one and only is so ' outdated' haha or 'unglam' but now i know why should be the one and only.. because then the chances of u getting hurt is very little...anyway this few months i SORT OF liked somone before.(complexed feelings cannot say like..). but then it din turn out well.. nvm.. i am over it..long over it.. i am soo happy that i din dwell on it..
anyway i should really end here.. bye..
peace out.. song recommendation:quite an old song but is I'm good by blaque

2006-09-27T04:06:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.. happy things to blog abt.. firstly.. its been day since after my birthday.. haha.. i was sooo touched by my friend because like sher and gang baked for me a cake.. damn nice..(i mean the taste of the cake). and becoz of the cake she did not really study for her last paper.so sweet right.. my goodness.. after then i was like sleeping.. taking my nap. i then receive a 5 pages long msg from rebekah.. soo sweet also.. wa.. thanks for everything.. everyone that gave me presents..presents really doesn't mean anything is the thoughts that count.. i was soo touched that even though my birthday was during the exam period .. ppl still remembers it..i am really grateful to have u as my friends.. the joy and laughter.. tears and sadness.. is really part and parcel of my life.. dunno how to live without u guys.. gonna miss the sch.. not the sch itself. but is the teachers and friends.. like girls in 5/1..5/2..5/3.. and my juniors. ahah.. another thing.. last friday.. club.. haiz.. worst clubbing section ever.. dun talk abt it.. even though it sucks.. i still make the best out of it..
pipi
peace out..
really gonna miss u guys man..song: boys two men.. its so hard to say goodbye

2006-09-19T00:22:00.000-07:00

yeh.. my birthday tomoro.. haha.. today wanna blog becoz something good happened to me.. my cousin bought 30 over clothes from thailand.. from me and my mum.. wow.. 30 over.. anyway.. can't really wear all of them.. only can wear like few of them.. mainly is becoz of the size of my b--bs.. ahahah.. kind of proud to say that.. but sad to see all those nice clothes been wear by others.. i am very upset abt the f and n paper that i have today.. wow.. ALL KNOW HOW TO DO WAT.. wat the.. hard like shit can.. i mean especially on section c and anyway cannot say anything becoz didn't study alot.. haiz.. but nvm.. prelims.. Os work harder.. hey birthday tomoro.. and last paper.. gonna be very happy.. ha. and friday will be a very happenning night.. but i dun even think i can make it.. haiz.. nvm.. i will try my best to persuade.. my father came back from overseas. kind of miss him though.. haaha.. anyway is rare.. but anyway i love my family soooo much.. muacks....
pipi
peace out
song:right where u want me.. jesse

2006-09-14T02:01:00.000-07:00

woo.. been blogging.. not bad.. haha.. i just finish some of my prelim papers.. and have f and n to go.. haiz,.. need to memorise alot man.. ya.. i have been trying very hard to do well but sometimes it just wun go ur way.. i felt that effort that is put in.. has gone to waste. nvm.. life is like that.. ya.. talking abt clubs.. ha.. rare! i dun have the feeling of going already. maybe too stress and even thinking makes me feel guilty..ya few days ago i read someones blog and i really lol man.. shouldn't reveal the person's blog but just find it funny.. maybe at least for me,.. i am glad that i do not need to retake my chinese paper.. coz the paper is quite difficult.. maybe the reason is that i have not touch chinese for YEARS... haiz.. exams are killing me man.. killing all my brain cells.. yesterday i open my bro's laptop.. i found something.. something that he wrote really makes me feel like crying.. i know that these few years he have been leading a life that is not wat he actually wanted.. and he struggled through relationships and problems.. and i felt like crying is because he have kept it all inside his heart and it hurts when i am unable to sense it.. and i need a comp. to tell me all his feelings.. as a sister i felt helpless. i totally understands all his feelings and i am starting to feel for him.. he really worked very hard but maybe is the obstacles he face in life that really makes him feel soo down.. i know that will nv find out that i have this blog and i am writing abt him.. but i just wanna say something to him..
kor.. i know how u feel and i know things is not going ur way.. but u actually can say it out and maybe u will feel better.. u seems really normal this few years but i know that u are not..maybe u have pass the period and u feel better now but remember if next time the previous generation has gone.. i am the only one on this earth that is flowing the same blood as u.. so i can sense how u feel and i know that i will be the one that can share problems besides ur wife or children.. soo i do care for u.. and do u know everytime i did something wrong or i am very fustrated with studies.. i will start to cry.. and u will always say" silly girl dun cry".. from this i know that u really care for me and i am very touched.. but sometimes u will just act like strangers.. haiz.. anyway blood is thicker than water.. hope u r happy right now..
peace out pipi..
loves.. everyone

2006-09-03T04:27:00.000-07:00

Hey i am here to blog again.firstly, last week i went to liquid again.. i am very sad and depress that the place had closed down becoz it contains too much memory..that is one of the club that i find rocking. anyway. i found out something that quite suprising.. it is my cousin's blog.. she is a person that is very guai and listen to what parents and from her blog i am tell that she is not very happy.. and i have read her entries and some of it is quite sad.. and really need someone there to support. i just wanna say that she is not alone.. sometimes i felt that way to.. i also hate comparison and competition( and in fact i have loss the faith in myself that i am able to do well.. u can see it by the rate that i am slacking.. haha) ya.. sad to say that but i need to admit that i might not be able to achieve wat i want..
i realise that nowadays i am very slacked and no motivation and drive to keep u go now. and the worst is this year is my Os leh.. how..dead la.. once i put in sooo much effort and excel but now is like omg slack.. compared to my other cousin.. he siao one can sooo smart and very hardworking.. U SEE COMPARISON. life have too many things to compare.!!
pipi.. sad at this point.. i think not sad but is numb and can't feel anything.!
peace out..
song i am listening to : doing too much

2006-08-21T19:42:00.000-07:00

hey i did not blog for years.. and usually i will blog becoz of usual things only when there is good or bad things to blog abt then i will.. there are two things that make me feel happy/elated..
the first thing of course is the chinese exam results and i am very shocked that i did quite good..but the only thing that i am not very happy is that i am broke because i place bets with frens and that i will need to treat them. the second thing happen very recently is that i have gone to club again.. hahah again..but this time round for a different purpose.. the club is closing.. thats why i will be going for the last time..on that night i was actually still a little sick and i have just recover from the fever and stuff.. but that night was great(the music wasn't extremely good)..i had fun..ok shouldn't say soo much.. just sad that the club is closing..
.. just wanna say that liquid u had contain all the memorise that have and i am upset that u are closing..bye.
pipi.. peace out

2006-06-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

today i have just came back from camp.. the girl replied.. and i know definitely there is some misunderstandings.. if i have hurt her very badly i am willing to apologise to her.. but the problem is i dunno whether will she reply back? if she does that means that she forgive me.. but if she dun.. then is our friendship is going to waste.. we have many fond memorise.. if i dun talk to her.. (or any of my other friends) i will feel lost..and this is my weakness
now i am utterly lost..
wat am i going to do?
pipi.. peace out

2006-03-23T07:53:00.000-08:00

i did not blog for really a very long time, maybe is becoz no time or i am too lazy..but i think the real reason that i did not blog is becoz too much emotions and it is hard to blog it down..now is 11.58Pm and i am still awake not feeling sleepy but my heart is exhausted..i often cry , cry till eyes is dry and heart is so empty that sometimes i think that why am i here in this world when i am soo empty inside..i have loss the meaning of life..things had happened and i dun know how to react to it..the only thing that i can do is keep silence.is this fair to me? knowing what is the fact but no one believes in me..i hate the feeling..i think the most scarest thing is death but is emptiness and lonliness..and i have both of them..which makes me feel very scared, at times i go to clubs.. and i dun know why i would go there? wat is my purpose of going there besides dancing..(i dun drink)?my bro once said that ppl in club wants to get attention and i realised that that was a fact..and maybe i am one of them..this year compared to last year i was soo lost and i am scared that this will affect my Os..but nonetheless i will try my best..i will put in sweat and blood..
i must do myself proud
pipi..peace out

2006-01-11T23:33:00.000-08:00

oh man, i have not blog for like years..and i dunno y would i wanna blog again..just have the sudden urge to blog right away..this few days i was very lethagic and exhuasted..i dunno y but maybe is becoz ppl around me is all like started studying but i have not..i dunno why this year i am so" slack" but actually i know tt when time comes i will study but not now..jus becoz i cannot absorb soo early..ya i have been pondering over some questions..like ppl around is starting to leave me..and i dunno y.? like all my band frens leave for good.. and me, still stay at the same spot..soo disappointing..and not only tt..frens like use to be very close to me have leave me alone in the dark..i mean i am not alone but is jus tt things are changing quite a little and i hate changes..
i am going to move my house already sad to sayi am not happy..seriously.i am not able to go home with frens..(but anyway the frens also dun care one whether did i go home with them anot..since they have their frens..hahah) the saddest thing is i have been in this house for like 10 years..to me 10 years is alot..and after this year ppl are leaving for further education..and me ? i dunno wat i will be..thinking of it makes me scared..dunno will i get in contact with them anot? or i will make new frens..
i have many wonders..yet to find out.
i cannot bare to leave my frens and my house..
love peace out..pipi

2005-11-14T19:49:00.000-08:00

YES.todae is tuesday and i have wasted my monday..but is unforgettable on saturday..because i went somewhere and had great fun..i have seen somethings that i should not tell coz that is not right..and i am very happy but till now my legs are still pain..u ppl should guess where i went? answer: cl-_-_ng. go guess..no prize..hehe.i did my dare.and i dance wif ppl tt i dun know and all of my frens had fun and everytime when i go to place like tt i feel like slimming down becoz u see ppl cuddling and hugging.. and me standing there by my self..yes..i am not loose but still i wanna to be slim..and tall..i really dun mind getting taller for like4 more cm(but too dofficult la)..that would be perfect..i should get taller and slimmer..and sunday i went to singing lessons and i am happy tt i have sang ok..(still bad actually) and i have not mentally prepared so cannot blame me..
today should have tuition but cancelled..coz teacher is having a great headache..
*A shout out to those who have exams like 'o' levels like lyn, step, huiyan.zheeyen, dorcas.dorothy.sabrina.and many many more..i have been through my 'n' levels and i know that its not easy..and really think tt 'o' levels are really much different..i hope they can do their best..and give thier best shot..
hehe..bye.pipi

2005-11-08T21:56:00.000-08:00

i think i have changed quite a lot..like i am not the good girl..and i am not the guai girl any more...i go clubs but i dun drink..i just like the music and i just dance.. there is no wrong with dancing right.. i dun drink and i keep in my own group wat..but actually teh clubbing environment is not good...my mum thought i smoke..but of course i did not becos i hate ppl who smoke..discrimination..i am sick for the pass few daes and i cannot sing for a few daes..damn sad. dunno who can cure me..jesus pls help me..i really hope tt i will be a good girl after going to athens and after getting my results.....i am damn sad..i very scared i cannot score well..like cannot go sec 5
i am so weak..and my mind like blank and tt is the worse...like cannot remember anything..
i am dying!!
pipi ciao

2005-11-01T06:34:00.000-08:00

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has

enough trouble of its own."

"Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children and live in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."
hey ppl..did not block for years..haha..even after exams i did not block..i have been through a lot these months and i think i grew older and wiser.. i mean i am stronger spiritually and emotionally..me too..i went singing and worst thing is band resume..is not tt i dun like band but is just tt i dunno know to play..love..i am sick of it..it makes me so sick tt i am so dead..i have dropped in to it and i am trying to pick mmyself upi need peace..i am not looking for one tt is handsome but one who can love me for who i am..is tt difficult..i dunno....
xian..ciao
piipi..was here

2005-10-08T18:36:00.000-07:00

yes.. exams finished already.. but i still feel so empty.. i thought i should be relax but i did not.. i am still worried abt my marks and stuff..how? wat should i do..i am lost.. i am scared that becoz of my english i would retain..i cannto retain.father lord pls help me and give me strength and let me pull through and i really hope to get into sec 5..everything seems so calm and relax for me and i should cherish it and enjoy as almost all my papaer had been send to london and i can't do anything abt it at this moment... i had some regrets but who do not have..i should put it aside now..yesterdae i went out and my hand..so boring..i wanna go learn singing and i am going to sing on tuesday.hooray..omg so long did not siong already..ok nothing much..bye
pi..was there

2005-08-27T01:44:00.000-07:00

oh my.. very long time i did not update my blog.. yup.. just finish my prelims and still going for my 'n' levels..i am scared coz actually aiming for a 4 points but no is like 6 points.. how man..i really scare man..i want to do myself proud but still..actually i did improve form mid year but yet still long way to go.i hope that i am able to do well and not retain..
"when i look out from my window..i saw nothing but darkness.".. this sentence really can show how i feel now..very dead and hopeless.how? what am i going to do.. the drive is not within me..i am pressurize..my god..please help me i know that what i have done u saw it..and i really hope i can do u proud..u have chosen to be the one man..!! i hope that i can improve in my chinese and english.. basically my language as they are poor....
i hope that after my'n' levels i can say" i saw rainbow and a pot of gold.. and that will be my reward!!!!"

2005-07-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

actually i didn't wanna blog todae but there is sumthing inside me that i really wanna say it out..i felt bad and pain..i dunno why i will feel like this but i just can't help it i think i am really feeling that pressure in me..and i have no one else to talk to and i have bursting into tearss.. i didn't wanna tell me frends becoz they are also going through hard and i kow how they feel..i just dun wanna be a burden for them..i cried just now when i called my mum..becoz she and my dad is in thailand..and i really miss them..
and my bro..i didn't see him for two daes..actually its very common that i dun see him becoz he always come and go like wind.i think those sisters who are 5 years old younger than your bro u will know..i really wanna say i hope to see him and i hope we can becos close as super glue..like everything that troubles him he will let me know..and i know this will never happen..becoz both of us are not so outspoken..both will never say we both love each other..
wat a poor siblings..
lord i am very stressful i hope that u can have mercy and blessings over me

2005-07-28T00:56:00.000-07:00

wo hen xiang ni... ni zhi dao ma..ru guo ke yi...ru rang wo zai jian ni.. ok.. this is a part of a song dun bother..ok..i have been very guilty of not studying and others are studying... and i still stay stagnant..so..sad..how and tomoro i am betting with sumone and see who is the highest.....in marks.how i am not prpepare..but i still need to take the test..and i wanna compare but is just not prepare........
pls help me lord..but lord i know u will not coz...i did not even help myself..

2005-07-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

i was hutred so deeply..i cannot believe sumthing..i know a girl for 6 years and she is leaving me so fast..she is blaming and i know that she is living in pain sje just want to go back to her homeland. at first i can't bare her to leave but from todae on wards if she is going i am not going to persuade her to stay..never..she is too stuborn and i cannot stand her stubornness...her heart is damn narrow..i used the word "damn" meaning that is really very bad..i dun wanna say the details out but she is not the girl that i know before..i hurts when she is leaving coz 6 years but wat can i do she is already not the girl that i knew before.. and i cannot stand her liao..i remember those fond memories..i feel like crying..she just say she canot live her life like tt and she wants to leave..and she leave me here alone with the pain..who has no pain and pressure in their life..she is just enclosed to herself never spare a thought for others...
so wat ever if she wants to leave i will not say anything anymore.. i just wanna delicate this song to here...
Ask me how I feel Tina Turner
Oh I’m waiting in the storm, ask me how I feelWhen things are going wrong, why don’t you ask me how I feelThe night is awful cold, ask me how I feelYou’re much too loose to hold, why don’t you ask me how I feelI close my eyes to follow youTo my surprise you’re so untrueAnd I’m crying, I’m dyingOh I’m waiting in the storm, ask me how I feelWhen you keep me hanging on, why don’t you ask me how I feelThe waters run so deep, ask me how I feelWhen I don’t get any sleep, why don’t you ask me how I feelAnd when you’re down you lean on meYou’re a fool, too blind to seeThat I’m crying, I’m dyingOh I’m waiting in the storm, why don’t you ask me how I feelWhat the hell is going on, why don’t you ask me how I feelWhen you stay out late at night, ask me how I feelWhen you think that I’m uptight, why don’t you ask me how I feel ohYou don’t treat me tender no matter what I doBut I’m the great pretender I’m waiting in the storm, ask me how I feelWhat the hell is going on? When you stay out late at nightYou never ask me how I feel, you just say that I’m uptightWhen you’re down, I do for youAnd now I find that you’re untrue

2005-07-12T17:05:00.000-07:00

i have not been blogging this months or maybe a weeks i guess..i decided to blog today because i think that i have done very badly for my english oral..i am really bad for my english and i actually hope that this will pull me up but in the end i srewded it..i am dead i really ope that i will get like25/40..if i can get above a passing grade and i got this marks or higher i will be damn damn damn happy..i need thos oral to help me..i was stammering and i did not really describe fully what is the picture about..i kept pausing and i know that i am dead..the previous prelim oral i wasn't that bad i got 29/40..and i was satisfy with the marks and now...omg i really very scared my heart i coming out sooner or later...i hate this oral..even if is the chinese one i am very sure that i am able to do well..at least not a "on the fence" grade..when i walked ot of the room i am very scared i showed a hand sign of dead...i was asked a lot of questions...and that i not suppose to be the case...u should talk a lot and they are the one suppose to stop u..my mind is blank..i have a dreamt about the conversation ..i dreamt that the examination asked me that question that i was tested..but still i am unable to express out..i really hope by god's grace and mercy he will pass me and eventually pull the whole english grades up.lord i really pray hardthat u will be showing mercy and grace upon me and really let me pass and get into sec 5..i really dun wanna be retain in the same class..lord heavenly father..the time u promise me that u are gonna keep to your promise and let me at least pass my english ..is ......5:10 pm..in the afternoon..lord i take it that u have promised me as now s raining and i treat the rain drops as every blessing u have shown upon me...
lord thanks for everything...
love . peace. victory..is mine.

2005-06-21T22:49:00.000-07:00

This few daes i didn't blog...i have been through many things..there is good and bad..but is very complicating..the first week i am sick and iwas weak..but still.. i need to go to school to study..oh.before going to school i went thailand...after tt trip to thailand then i am sick....the following week i went to dentist for my braces and i saw wolfgang on the bus he is kind of short but i still like him..very thin and quite weak!!!(hehehe......)oh...and i saw shan the eye for a guy that shan...he is tall and handsome but the face is too small for his body..and he got tt attitude so i think denise had made a right choice.SO WAT if a guy had wrote me a song, i will still eliminate him(if i am denise) becoz of his attitude....omg i can't stand this type of person..
and i had just came back from thailand again..second time in a month,i went there for my parents business and not to play..sad case next week school term starts again..loads of homework yet done..i am dead...
wish to see all my frens back in school...i forget..i regretted for not going to the premier for 'initial D'.....
bibibi
lots of love..........................

2005-06-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

Yozi..i have concluded sumthing..this few months i have very unlucky..and is a few months thingy..although i am a christian i dun believe all this unlucky or lucky thing but really..u believe or not..i have been to my family doctor for abt 10 times..because of all the sickness i have..i hate it i have never been so sosososos weak before can? wat the..hell..
oh ya i want to recommend a song..it is a old song..i want to delicate to frens like 4/8 class especially prisca.sarah.pamela ng.sherlyn.junying.(in random order)and rebekah..and many others...
this song is..thanks god i found u..by mc..98 degrees...
Thanks God I Found You
AhhhmMhhhOh yeahI would give up everythingBefore I'd seperate myself from youAfter so much sufferingI finally found unvarnished truthI was all by myself for the longest timeSo cold insideAnd the hurt from the heartache would not subsideI felt like dyingUntil you saved my lifeThank God I found youI was lost without youMy every wish and every dreamSomehow became realityWhen you brought the sunlightCompleted my whole lifeI'm overwhelmed with graditude'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found youMmmhOh yeahWhoaaaaaa Oh yeahTo ensure your happinessI'll cherish every part of you'Cause without you beside me I can't surviveDon't wanna tryIf you keeping me warm each and every night'Cause I need you in my lifeOooohThank God I found youI was lost without youMy every wish and every dreamSomehow became realityAnd I'm so thankful I found youOoooohSee I was so desolate before you came to meI guess it shows that we were destinedTo shine over the rain to appreciateThe gift of what we haveAnd I'd go through it all over againTo be able to feelThis wayThank God I found youI was lost without youMy every wish and every dreamSomehow became realityOoooooohWhen you brought the sunlightCompleted my whole lifeI'm overwhelmed with graditudeSee baby I'm so thankful I found youOoooooohThank God I found youI was lost without youI'm overwhelmed with graditudeMy baby I'm so thankful I foundYouYouI'm overwhelmed with graditudeMy baby I'm so thankful I foundYou
ya..very nice..thanks for supporting till the end..
a message to lord..
lord..heavenly father i really hope that u can really cure me and strengthen me.. i am goin for a wedding and i really hope that by then i will be perfectly fine..now i am really in pain..lord i really hope that miracle will work on me.i need to wat pain killers to stop the pain and lord pls..help me..lord i have faith in u i believe tt u will cure me because u tell me u will NEVER BREAK YOUR PROMISE..u are able to make weak stand, the dead alive and the blind to see...wat else u cannot do..... lord bless me..thans..i love u...amen!!!!

2005-05-22T07:36:00.001-07:00

yup..i blog again..i feel that i am a failure as i have done really badly for my exams..of course the self-esteem i have have drop down so much but i will back coz pamela tan mei bing is damn strong never give up..those girls want me to die?! i will never..coz i have girl power..no one can ever pull me down no matter wat..i will be back with my confident and set a goal and go towards it..i am able to take up challenges and whoever wants to compete with me COME..i will play with u..i discribe myself as a wild flower(even though i am not that nice) ya..wild flower..who wants to play with me..watch out man..the strongest flower is which types of flower u know?! is the wild flower as they are very adaptable and able to grow wherever and whenever they want..i will be that..forever..will be..
In my life.. i have many frens around me and always bless me..thans god that i have this type of frens eg. prisca.. i am very thankful tt i have u..you are the one who prayed with me and even though i did not pass my s.s but i am really thankful.rebekah..sherlyn, juny and eunice thanks too.pamela i know tt u always wanted to score in your humanities but this time round u did not..never give up becoz all people who name pamela will not..i will be back and shine..
thanks god and hope that i will always be bless.

2005-05-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

yup..i blog again..i feel that i am a failure as i have done really badly for my exams..of course the self-esteem i have have drop down so much but i will back coz pamela tan mei bing is damn strong never give up..those girls want me to die?! i will never..coz i have girl power..no one can ever pull me down no matter wat..i will be back with my confident and set a goal and go towards it..i am able to take up challenges and whoever wants to compete with me COME..i will play with u..i discribe myself as a wild flower(even though i am not that nice) ya..wild flower..who wants to play with me..watch out man..the strongest flower is which types of flower u know?! is the wild flower as they are very adaptable and able to grow wherever and whenever they want..i will be that..forever..will be..
In my life.. i have many frens around me and always bless me..take god that i have this type of frens eg. prisca.. i am very thankful tt i have u..you are the one who prayed with me and even though i did not pass my s.s but i am really thankful.rebekah..sherlyn, juny and eunice thanks too.pamela i know tt u always wanted to score in your humanities but this time round u did not..never give up becoz all people who name pamela will not..i will be back and shine..
thanks god and hope that i will always be bless.

2005-05-19T23:45:00.000-07:00

what the heck..i failed two subjects.OMG.lord is not that i wanna use your name but is just that i am really sad...even i got good marks in some subjects but so? i am very tired and sick of my marks... nothing better to say, i only hope that i could pass well to get into 'o' levels......
a message to lord:
dear lord heavenly father, i know that i have put u down as i did not get the marks that i suppose to. i know that watever marks u have for me is wat i have deserved i did not blame anyone or cry but i reflected i know this marks that i have gotten i should not be blaming anyone butmyself as maybe i did not studied well enough and it is all last minute work but lord please give me a more chance and i will cherish it truly and that i am 'n' levels i really hope that i am able to pass with good grades and do well for others to see,for those who have looked down and depised me before.i know this road that i have choosen its hard but u know wat? this will motivate me and push me. . lord are u willing to be there for me whenever i need you and are u willing to be standing right beside me to guide me through all this...when pastor sam was preaching i am ableto feel your presence but now is like i am lost really cannot find my way out...totally lost and i am unable to see my future lord how? can u pls help me..
thanks for everything u have promised and lord pls bless me..

2005-05-12T04:28:00.000-07:00

once caught into pieces...swallowing me and spit me out..hey..my exams are over..love peace out now slack like heaven..haha..i have not sleep well this few night coz got exams and my comp. just repaired..i have happy that my exams is over but i am scared of the results..i have sacrificed for my exams a lot og thing like no comp. and tv..wat the every time come to exams right always like this one.my mum and dad is coming home todae.. "i dun wanna have to go where u dun follow.." and "stay in my arms if u dare"..i think would be very familiar to u right..vonzell solomon..OM goodness.she is very good..too good to be true..this few days is super tired and my complexsion has gone from bad to worst already..ai yo..and on sun i need to stay up to mondae morning 7..i am betting with sumone..yes..i hope i can win..i mean stay up till morning.tomoro some of my frens wanna go out but i wan to go but yet dun..the feeling is just weird.
ya..i promise that i will write sumthing for my fren-name SHERLYN..haha..
ok sherlyn is a very'holy' girl as she has a lot of faith in jesus and i think she is a good cell leader..in school her f and n always get so high actually quite envy her..and teacher loves her..especially..MISS KEE.. hahahaahaha kidding but she is a goodie to shoe girl.. she is a good fren of mine..i am really lucky to have her..i am really very sorry that i cannot go with her to australia to study but i tink she will have bright future if she goes..there..wish u best of luck..i need to wish myself also..my exams results i need to man..get good results.pls.i am very sad as i am fat and todae i heard my mum said that her client said that i am very fat..sort of ugly.i was like wat the..toot..want to shout out that word can but think back ya i am ..but so wat i am still me..even though their saying is mean but i am still myself..but u know wat.. it really hurts..i really felt my heart gonna break sooner or later..the most funny thing is i dun feel like slimming down..and i think this obese thing is a family thing..jus a long story..

2005-04-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

wat the heck..my computer spoilt...i am using my dad's now..really sad can have my mid-year now..dun know how is the answer..really turn from bad to worst...my fren jy..i dun know why i got the strong feeling tt she dun like me any more and she is the one who always makes me feel that way..but sumtime not only her la..haha..todae went out with her..kinda happi..long time did not go out liao..after md-year..i want to know my results...if good then slack a bit longer..we talked abt quite a lot of things like my grand mother..and stuffs..ghost is one of our topic..i am thinking of sumthing till i did not press the bell and get down the bus..luckily the bus uncle stop even not need to walk a long way home..really tired...i really hpe that my dear fren jy..wun get angry with me...coz..i know that she is not a petty one..haha.. lots of love..om goodness..peace out..jy..wanna say are u angry with me becoz of me not buying things for u..i know i am bad..nextime i will..dun be angry gal..we are fated to be together..hahaha joking can?!realy.muacks..i did not want to hurt u on purpose..i really feel badof not buying things for u...really hope u dun mind..junying..and friends ....opps.. i am>< kinda fall in love with u..muhahahah..i am stopping now...hope that i am able to pass my exams..

2005-04-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

die liao..oh my gosh..lord help me to forget about him.i think i have fall for him already.i rally confused.he is really a good guyand came from athens..ya athens..but he studied in uk..cool right..it is fun talking to him..this year he is 21..and i am 16..his name is..i cannot tell..but really he is a great guy..he touched me when he said that he dun want to have a girl frend because he dun have time for her and it is unfair to her. from here, i know he is a great guy.i love to talk to him even though there are many interruptions.i want to delicate this song to him..i think i had a HUGE crush with him..todae i am damn sad i a unable to send him off..he is going back to athens.i actually wanted to hug him but..i did not pluck up enough courage to say.anything anymore..i really wanted a hug very badly..
but i really scared tt he will affect my studies as i think of him too often so that is why i wan to forget him..can i?ami able to forget..
the song is all or nothing.
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Chorus:
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Chorus

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

Chorus x2
i dun think i can forget about u..but i will try..

2005-04-14T23:13:00.000-07:00

what duh..actually type a very very long letter to REBEKAH HUANG XIAO QIAN can?! BUT COMPUTER got sumthing then cannot.but rebek i jus wan to say i am sorri for not taking care of your feeling and i hope u will forgive me..i will try to care more for u and i really hope our frenship will last as ever..i wanna tell u appreciate what u have done for me but is jus i am not good as expressing out so i am very sorri..i really thought tt u are going with march and your class mates..but i didn't know u was hurted..and angry but really i dun like when u are angry becoz i hate when ppl dun talk to me and give me black face leh..pls i am scared of it liao..i wanna say.YOU ARE VERY THOUGHTFUL FOR ME..THANS FOR EVERYTHING U HAVE DONE FOR ME..even though jus now(15/4/05)u were angry but u asked me to sit down when the person stood up i know u still care for me even u are angry with me..thanks love u lots..i have more to say and write but i hope u can feel it through my heart and i do not need to speak it out and.. stand close to my heart then u will know how i feel abt u..
i wanna delicate this song to my beloved fren name rebekah..PLEASE LOOK AT THE LYRICS AND U WILL NOE HOW IT GOES..I LIKE.. I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Want You To Know That We Love You (CHORUS)i love it.rebek hope u will read and forgive me..thans..
thans for being there whenever i need u..i really hope tt not only march the one u are going for..i am here..too..look and call me pls.dun be angry la..this is not body's fault so next time i will go with u okay..i promised.take my word..actually i counted actually i go out with u more than with junying they all leh..i take with u more neoprints..really frankly speaking..hope u will believe..from the bottom of my heart..really..hope u read this..i luv u ..(as a fren)really frens forver.actually they are not going with me i am meeting them.to the musical..so u and i the same..wat..so dun be angry liao lah..not pretty liao..like this
Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And You Needing Someone To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Want You To Know That We Love You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What You All Don't Know About Him
Is I Can't Let Him Go Because He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging On Me Sometimes
But I Know He Be Tired He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

[Chorus x2]

[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Our Help?
We Known Eachother Too Well

[Chorus x2]

2005-04-14T03:09:00.000-07:00

haiz..super duper sad can...actually is disappointed..why why can't we get a gold with honours..i was soo..CONFIDENT CAN!but we got a gold and tt is also good enough liao la..i think i have fallen in love with a guy..the guy some sure know one lor..especially is lynette..i am soo deeply in love with him..the guy with a pair of long and beautiful arms..ow..! 'shuai' can..hahah..joking only la..i am in love my conductor..haha.joking..really..but i really like him as a teacher..is he the one conducting the feel of the music and todae my hands are aching coz too touched then move too much..mr tan i am very scared because this year all sec 4 express all go liao..then i and juniors i am very scraed tt i cannot cope lar..how?really how? i really dun want to perform but i want to watch me own band growing and playing in a concert hall..tt feeling is so good can?!ya..yesterdae i cried and finally i cried..i am soo sad and disppointed and not because we cannot get gold..but is jus that finding is very unfair..this world is jus unfair..noting else but unfair.but sometimes is quite faor also la..dunno..confused!t cried and my heart is taring..that pain tt i feel is like dunno how to say..i am really in love with band maybe not band but is music..i love to sing..lord thans very much nomatter what we get really..we had a great eight months..and i am ver sad tt all sec 4 (e) and 5 is leaving and all my level one in my section all go liao !!!how? really i really desperately miss them a lot can..my heart aching whenever i think of this..believe it or not!heart aching..i am missing u badly..i can;t sand myself not leaving with u..my heart is always with you..really.lots of kiss.
delication to sections and of course conductor..yu char.leonard tan.

Share my life
Take me for what I am
Cuz I'll never change
All my colors for you
Take my love
I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are
And everything that you do
I don't really need to look
Very much farther
I don't wanna go
Where you don't follow
I don't hold it back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
chorus:
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Must I imagine you there?
Don't walk away from me
I Have Nothing
Nothing
Nothing, if i don't have you
You see through
Right to the heart of me
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love
I never knew
Love like I known it's with you
Will the memories survive?
One I can hold on to
I don't really need to look
Very much farther
I don't wanna go
Where you don't follow
I don't hold it back again
This passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
You're the love I remember forever
Chorus*3

hope u will love this song coz this is my favourite song yeah..lots of scttered dreams

2005-04-12T07:53:00.000-07:00

hearing merry widow now..i really hope and wish tt our band can get a gold and really do well..i really need to use the RI'S motto/slogan-we should.we must.we can.we will...i totally agree it..lor..i never hear my band played so well before can like todae i am moved by every single member in band..it is soo touching can?i really dun know how much i need to say and enforce u know...we need to get a gold no matter how..just now the band is giving me the feeling tt we can get gold but now..i dun know..i am not nervous but excited..becoz..this is all sec 4 and5's last year we really want to do the school proud like mad..i need to feel the music..i really need to move, not blast, showmanship..tell ppl that we are not lethagic..we must play the best of all..we must we should..with the strength of lord pls..HELP US..
this is a short message..and calling out to phyllis and qien..why?nowadaes we dun go home together..avoiding us izzit..we duh..!?very bad can!i need u as a friend can dun like tt la..!!!!
bye.GOLD WITH HONOURS ..PLS..LA

2005-04-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

hi...ai ya why always start with "hi"..weird..yes todae i am going to comment our band and compared to other bands..really first i really want to comment on our band that we really improve a lot not tt i am bragging but we really improve in tone and everything but there is always rooms for improvment..this year my slogan is 'our band, GOLD IS NEEDED' we are really at the desperate state of getting a gold..really because others like indian dance got gold of honours..what de gold of honours can!!!if we got it really oh..my..goodness liao. i will thanks lord of course and thans our lovely conductor and bandmates..but is really quite impossible la..BUT GOLD IS REALLY POSSIBLE.
compare to other bands..
-we really did extremely badly in articulation..
-bass sound is REALLY NOT STRONG..
-basically is not there..
compare to other band we are still far like heaven and hell..
examples..like RI, TKGS, ST PATRICKS..
-they have put in a lot of hard work to get to this stage but really lot more to go..
- i am a very pessimistic gal, and really judges..give us the gold..we really need it alot..
-how say tt we dun have a rich heritage so therefore we must fail..mr.tan i really dun think so can..how say that we must know where we stand.. we this batch can make a different..we must aim high and everyone put in effort and some people dun paly TOO LOUD or TOO SOFT..must have confident..i agree tt we have nothing to lose..really...so13/4/05 we are going to ROCK THAT DAE MAN...!
love from a gal..??

2005-04-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

hoiss...long time didn't blog i was soo pissed by my computer but is but is not the computer's problem is the internet got problem..nevermind..congrates..the indian dance got gold with honours..i also want the band to get but i think gold is good enough actually nobody will undertand how desperate of getting it..bacoz of these..any of us practice even though cannot compare with chinese highor temesak but we really worked hard for it but ppl usually dun see how hard u work but is only the results.i am very happy because the sch rehearsal was nice but sad is tt we have deproved..this really discouraged me alot..calling out to mr.alan..
i really hope u know and you rea able to see that the euphonium players are really working hard not only us is practically the whole band..the passion in us have u feel it..if not u are a cold-blooded person..how much in our heart wanting to do well can u feel it..anyway i really need that gold..i know tt music cannot be judge like tt...but human are very practical they think tt competing is the best way to find out who is the best band..but in fact,how can u define music..
i really wish that we are able to play well..i need to get gold..we need it..lord eally help us..nomatter what pls..calling out for u ..!

2005-03-24T01:25:00.000-08:00

MOST IMPORTANT THING..BAPTISE.WOW..ROXS..
hoz..how's life..actually i am going to be baptise on easter even though i am quite scared but actually from my bottom heart i am very happi..really..cause i am able to tell everyone that i am a dughter of god..i am renewed..even though i have my weakness and may not be participating actively in church but i think is tt strength tt he give to me and really wan me to be his child..maybe frens will think tt i am naive and think highly of myself but i am 101%sure tt i wan to be god's daughter and not matter what i am still his daughter..and no matter what he will still be my father..i need and will have faith in him and as well as myself..i know mysef if i strongly believe in sumthing i will truely and faithfully to it and not others.ok..
late fridae we have an exchange..16 schools together like a small competition..conductors said tt it is not but i think they are comparing..some bands are really good like acs(I)and haixing..sec..our school i have not hear the recording so i cannot gove any comments but i think my part i played suckily..by the way i played on the euphonium..really puking..cannot really pitch..lips too thick liao.
the LAST THING i really think tt frens around me is like trying to avoid me i really dun know why i will have this weird feeling jus give me the answer FRENS..CALLING TO ALL FRENS PLS WRITE ON MY TAG BOARD WHETHER U DISLIKE ME OR U LIKE ME....PLS GIVE WIF REASONS SO ABLE TO CHANGE MAH..ya...really i felt like crying becoz.my beloved bandmate stephanie like dun wan to talk to me even my juniors..really sad like all alone in this world..like a loner..i am a cheerful person for those how know me..but tt dae really i felt my heart is aching badly..
confessions:stephanie and juniors..
pls dun think tt i am very complicated i am alos able to play wif one lor..i really wan for your love i am deprived of love..really i hope u will treat me better..top avoiding me or not talking to me..i will be very sad..
#i can't breathe when u say u never love me anymore..my heart was torn apart when u avoid me.i love u as deep as ever..ezit i did sumthing tt really make u mad or jus i am too mushy..i am a passionate girl.so cannot blame me..living a dae without u in life is like losing a part of me#
bibi..hope u wun think tt i am a les. i am jus to passionate.."gan xing"(read it in chinese.)
love.

2005-03-15T02:56:00.000-08:00

this whole week is all abt band..sad to say but need to face reality..sumtimes i really love band but sumtimes not..ok i will talk abt 4 of my section and band mates(linked)..stephanie,lynette,jazreel and joey..it is reminded that they are all in my section..
stephanie..
she is a lovely gal..yesh lovely..hahah.nvm and helpful..but nowadaes she dun seems wanting to talk to me..i am preety sad abt it..i also dun know why but i really feel tt she is avoiding me can?!todae she said sumting tt make me sooo shocked can!! i feel very inferior when i heard your playing..BUT ain't yours nicer..i can say among all three you are the NICEST can..so..ya ..
frm the bootom of my heart i really think tt u are a very good fren and i cherish u as much as anything else man....my love for u will never end till that dae u die..my breathe will still be there until u want me to die.i really willing to walk with u through everything single thing..when u need sumone to talk to..REALLY DUN HESITATE TO CALL ME..IT REALLY HURTS WHEN U DUN TALK TO ME COZ ONE SMILE OF YOURS CAN MAKE MY DAE..last time u always say tt i am bad coz i did not talk to u and now are u treating me back the same thing!?is this a retribution or what..ppl tt know me know tt i hate ppl avoid me or not talkin to me..SOO.THINK aBT IT.
lynette..
she is a very funny gal..real cute gal la..she can talk very loud but play soft..she is a nice person to talk too..this gal is very helpful really..always help me in almost anything.i will chrish u as a SL and a goood fren i know u will never let me down one ok!so dun let me be disappointed to u..let us be frens forever k..sumtimes u think tt i am very sad or behave diferently actually is nothing dun need to be worried..ya.u are so nice to be true.i have been showing love and concern to u CAN U FEEL IT...HAHAhaha..thanks for everything u have did for me thans man..i can never express myself in words u know right..i must show with some movement..i am very easy to get touched so u say tt i never be a judge ...thinkin abt it..yes its true..soo this really show me how well u know me.thans..
jasreel..
hey gal..u are the funky one but yet cute and funny..i know since u were a sec one..i am your buddy..even though your playing okok..we still love u remember..love is all around..thans for sittingbeside tolerating me..thanx..i appreciated soo much..u are the one that made my dae like u talk to me when i am bored ya..u are the one..when SUMONE(the gal i mention above..the first gal)dun talk to us we will start the conversation ourselves..thanx man..if not we will be bored to death..lots of love for u..i know u are the same club with me..we used to hate band a lot..but now even though we hate but we still put in our best right..lets work hard together..hahaHAHA
joey..this gal only like stephanie and lynette she very diao to me..kiddingkidding..hhaha..but indeed she is dao sumtimes really..dun really wan to talk especially me..dun know why maybe becoz i am always making a fool of myself in band..so she dun like or wat..pls dun be soo serious wif your playing rock it all out man..i will want to delicate the following lyrics to all my frends even if i did not mention your name now don mean that is not for u..IT IS FOR U..YES U..

best fren by s club 7:

I remember when we was young,
Playing pool, after school, keeping it cool.
People say we were the troublesome two.
I know the girls liked me and you.
I can never forget the times you've covered my back,
You helped me out and covered some slack.
There was nothing you'd never do,
It was all about me and you.

Bridge: You're my brother, you're my sister,
We'll stick together,
No matter what, no matter what.

Chorus: Best friend, never gonna let you down.
Best friend, always gonna be around.
You know, whatever life puts you through,
I'll be there for you.
We all need a best friend to understand,
A best friend, to take your hand,
You know whatever life puts you through,
I'll be there for you.

You remember the days when we would
Kick back, lay back.
We'd be chilling with the ladies.
Those times were the greatest.
So don't worry about a thing my friend,
Cause you can count on me, thick and thin.
Cause I'll be there right til the end (til the end).

Bridge

Chorus

Come on, come on, best friend (x 4)

Bridge x 2

2005-03-11T02:22:00.000-08:00

yoix...
don know how to start man..i fall down in science centre..i think that i am the first gal who can fall down there man..hahahHAA.wat makes me want to blog is because my coolest frends..i really wanna thanks 4 gals(ivey[xiao ling],sherlyn and rebakah)of course there is some others who really helped me..they are the main ones la..sherlyn have be with through out the thing it was pain..she was the one..nad she went down and carried a wheeling chair just for me sia..xiao ling and rebekah supported me and everything went so smoothly...i am now in pain when i am typing this thingy but i am eating the pillow..hahahhehe..i will be fine man..thnaks a lot ya.love u.

2005-03-09T07:34:00.000-08:00

hoz...nowadaes quite busy la...so very long didn't update liao...haha!!tuesdae had a exchange wif temasek secondary..wow..not bad..impressed wif the brass..the base sound is thick like dun know wat..we can never be like that..really..they have i think 4 we have at least 5 wat de...they are soo much stronger can but i think euphonium did quite well..we play really not bad..compare to them la..some notes they cannot pitch but we can..the only thing is that we really think that we are to soft...come on euphoniums...play loud la..a lot of people dun know wat is euphonium...we nust show them yes we are here..power..haha nvm..i am going to do sumthing abt that.
the merry widow..
=they played very well-more dynamics then singapore rhapsody..
=they have a thick sound man..soo thick until have goose bumps..
=conductor is "into" the pitch,tone,tunng of the band..
i totally agree wif wat he say..play loud wif a nice note..not blast..go to a field and play loud or stuff cloth..
=they played merry widow until i cried..I CRIED.. that really touched me till the bottom of my heart.like someone you have loved soo much and when sumthing happened to him or her, she died, you also want to die wif her..that pain u can never imagine ..if u never been through.. my pain i felt is never i can express.
ok nvm..we will work towards it..
to my frens:
todae my fren ask me whether i will die for frens a not..i said no..but thinking back i can't answer the question because example..if the frens is because of u and she died in a car accident then of course i will not live by myself i will die with her.. but is she the wan died in a car accident then i will not..and must see circumstances...i really dun believe that u will die for frend ..cannot be especially at this age..soo many things u never expirences yet man...but of course this is personal opinion..not against anyone la..pls..chill.i will chersih them really ....all myfrens i really dangeruosly in love wif u all man..u all are really the one that make my dae everydae..thans ya
i owe qien a present i will never forget..i will buy one.
specially for u..

bibi..stop right now fingers if not i will chop off all..kidding

2005-02-28T06:43:00.000-08:00

hi..everyone..i am really here to type a message for me frens...especially one girl whom i know from the start in school..her name is rebekah..lately she have been very werid like i want to talk to her she like very cool but when she feels like talking she will then talk to me..

message to rebekah..
hey gal..i know lately u have been very sad ya...i dun know why but then i know maybe is because of me..but ain't our relationship always been like this..??you are good wif naomi and march then of course me wif my frens..then i really dun know why u suddenly turn your face at me..u cannot really aspect me to like go where ever you go right?i know all this years its been my fault i know...when exams times everyone is bothering ther exams revision and you wil be the one calling me and ask me whether i am ok a not? that sweetness how can i forget..sumtimes u have done things for me and i really appreciate it but i jus dun show ya..pls understand..really i know a good fren is difficult to find..maybe your best frens is sumone else but in my heart i will always remember you as THE GAL THAT WHO WILL LAUGH WIF ME..B WIF ME AND JOKES WIF ME..we usually takes bus home together i hope this wil never change as now we are in different class but hearts are still linked together..am i the one who hurt you i really dun know but really hope that we will be as before laugh at jokes like "jie mei" like that..REMEMBER WE ARE AS ONE UNITED FAMILY..
I HOPE U WILL STILL CALL ME AND TALK TO ME..I AM ABLE TO FEEL THE LONELINESS CAN?
remember my heart is there..searching for you and if u let it go..what will happen to me..we rae frens this is a fact if there is sumthing then jus tell me..can?call me..in 21 century there is a thing called phone and is use to call people and hope that people can conmmunicate well..call me or write me a letter..pls reply..bye

message to frens.
linda.meilin,sook fung and whole bunch of people i really wan to go singing wif you all lor..can u tell me ealier when you all wan to go canuse need to plan what to sing wan mah..
super singer linda..
love your singing..your cheerfulness man..but sumtimes can dun so dao can..dun get piss off suddenly..cool man..like ya..muacks

anyway jus wanna say it is late wanna sleep...cool good night..yap

2005-02-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

hi..i am updating my blog now...i am going to write in my blog abt my frends..two letters going to be writen...and maybe to gals called eunice and sherlyn..

to frends:
thanxs for tolerating me all the while and be there for me..sumtimes i really did not notice how for Fortunate i am.. all of you i did cherish and really want to be the frend tt u can share pain and happiness..but i dun think i had fulfill it..i am really a failure..a fren once told me tt she wanted the person to treat her the same as treated her..i find tt she really speaks out..i get what i have reap..how my fres treat me is a reflection of how i treated them..can u tell me how to be a better fren..sumtimes tt said tt i am very sensitive not to other but myself...hahah..i dun know maybe..maybei dun show how muchi care abt frens but really i tried to change so..anyone who sees this entry can tell me how u feel me..???tell me wat i can change..(maybe sum frens will think all this is bull shit..i am serious)lots of love..

to eunice:
its a great pleasure to go to your house and i had fun..eunice do u have sumthing against me(ok..not really against me but jus like my habits u dun like)....not saying wat but i jus wan to know how u feel abt me..really i need to know..maybe only maybe dun get mad: i am not the person u like or your best fren but as a normal fren can u tell me wats wrong like sumtimes i talk to u, u did not wan to talk to me like tt..i hate that kind of feeling..being a lone.. everyone knows i hate to be left out..i know u will feel irritated when i say i cannot wan la..but in the end the outcome is good...i will try to change ok??i felt left out when u all always go out together but as a fren for so long i did not go out wif u onces..not even one time..
i treat u as my good fren a fren who can laugh wif me and do funny stuff wif me...a gal who likes to take photos wif frens...
*pls believe...nothing is against u..we are still frens u can write in your blog or write me a letter to tell me things like things that u wan me to change*i love u..as a fren
=my soul will be wif u.. call me and i will be there=

to sherlyn:
i am very sorry that i cannot be the one that know how u feel even though u are sad..really i dun say it out but i know sumthing in your heart is making u sad..i feel..i cannot tell wat but there is sumthing..i am very thankful for the message u wrote on your blog..
thanx..very much..pain is always before beauty..i know..wat u have done for me i know..i may not say it out but really i do cherish it..upon hearing u thinks tt singapore is a sad place i think partly becoz of me..or us,frens..pls dun leave la..i know we still can communicate but it will be soo far..haha..
hope u heal by time..god will always be wif u..me too..remember..
=my body will rot,decompose...but u know wat my soul is everlasting and it will be with u..iwill stand beside u

this all..for todae..ppl..thanx..
lord bless me pls..i need u..u are the strength i need..

2005-02-12T19:31:00.000-08:00

hi..evrybody..my face is getting better now but my heart aches..i am really sad..bacoz of sumthing that i cannot say..jy am i your good fren or jus a fren that is normal..then why ? i really felt left out when u talk to eunice..and another thing is i falied my social studies ...that is the worse man..i never thought that i would fail my test..especially s.s..wat cao..i am very sad very this lor..can anyone tell me wat i have done wrong a not..tomoro i am having chinese paper back and goin to have bio test...i really hope i can be the one...i mean passwif good marks..i am scared.soo anyway..i love this song called salsa..is by mark anthony and jlo...i heard this song yesterdae and i sort of remember this song...is quite an old song..nice i love it...

2005-02-07T18:42:00.000-08:00

hi jus wanna say happi new year..(lunar one la)yeas..nowadaes my face sucks i dun wan to talk abt if u saw me dun ever ask me again i am sick of it...jus wanna say it will be ok..jus give me time ...let time heal everything i really hate myself now...did such a thing to my face..wat de...kao..nevermind..i shall be fine.todae is the renuion dae..hahaha..really wish that it will be a fine dae..doin my work half way sick liao stop now..this new year really means nothing to me becoz no spirit one..sian wishing next year will be ok...
i love a song since u have been gone...
nice song i am posting the lyrics bye..stop here..pray for my face..
thanx..lord help me ...i wish..this is the biggest wish in new year..Here’s the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn’t long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you’d ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That’s all you’d ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I’d never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want (I get what I want)
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can’t take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
lord i really wish u will help me pls...really wish..

2005-01-20T17:58:00.000-08:00

elo...sooo long i did not blog already..i am blogginf on becoz i wan to thank alot of ppl but don not how to say soo wsih that they can cum and take a look at my blog..
first,stephanie
i am very sorri for a lot of things soo u are the first girl i wanna say thank u and sorri..thank u for being soo good to me u had taught me a lot of thngs in band n outside of band..i know tt u know tt u are better than me..u always cannot deny it..only u did not play as loud as me.i know why!!becoz u dun wan to spoil the tone of the sound..i am not like u..i dun care..i put in 102% of effort soo now i think if i play high notes my heart will ache..(not saying u did not ut in your heart and play..dun get the wrong idea)i am serious..u always deny it..but truly in my heart u are the best among the 5 of us..i am sad becoz u neglected me and i really dun wan u to threat me like tt..forever u are the one of them i will forget if u left the band..i love u andnot like u now..(sorii..i am not les.)the love towards frens.u always give me the "ok lor" look..it irrates me...i wish i am the person tt u can share wif and tell secrets..even though i mix wif others..
i will cry if u go..
secondly,shuwen
i jus wanna say that not saying tt i am wif others tt means u dun mean alot to me..i really still wan u this fren..cum on u are the one that always made my dae..i wish u still threat me as a fren that can shsre..i really did not call is becozi dun know where u write your no..i really wan to call u one but cannot..rememberi really wanna to sae sorri.
jy
i always wan to ask u how u feel abt me..becoz i sit beside u..we interact wif each other a lot therefore sumtimes will have fractions..like two stones rub together will get fire..i love the time we spent together..i one thing dun like abt u is..can u put more effort in your work(teamwork)..e.g.i am here finding all the information and u jus draw and left everything else to me(like colouring,writing information..i know this is graded and miss lee really have high expectations)..are u fair..and that time i really wan to flair up(in the end i did not) becoz sher is not in our group and she help i know she help becoz she wants to colour and she wants me to help tika..at that time i know u are in bad mood..hating your life but life still goes on...I HATE ME LIFE TOO...SO WAT CAN I OR U DO ANYTHNG ABT IT...##saying all this things is not wanting u to be angry or wat i jus wanna explain things out, but i cannot say out so i type##..i know at time i also very bad..but can u bare wif me..u will find me irritating whenever i ask u sumthing and wan u to help me i know u jus wanna keep it inside..i know u are tolerating me..but what ever ,i really treat u as my good fren..one of a person tt can really talk to..everything no need to spell out..i will always keep it inside my heart..hope u can feel how i feel abt u..u are the one that made my dae also..lots of love..really hope this will not make our relationship bad..i always cherish it forever..u too

song reco.thats wat fren are for

2005-01-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

helo..many daes did not blog maybe because i think i am preparing for the starting of school...i am very disappointed of myself because of sumthing that i cannot say..i jus wanna say sorri to my teacher..i hate myself for that..todae i had a geo test and i find it difficult..i gave my all..i dun expect that i would get high marks for that but i think..or rather say i wish to get a high pass..
i wanna recommend this song tong lei..by stefanie sun
i know tt i like to post the lyrics but i only can find the chinese one and not the translated one..soo cannot post..
i will wrte a short one todea as i need to prepare the geo test..mapreading..sian i find that the teacher nowadaes give me a lot of pressure..especially the english teacher..i suddenly felt soo inferior in his class..the main reasin is i think i am very poor in my english...i love chinese so much..
i am ending here...bibi
song recommendation:get down on it..blue
a girl tt hate lovey dorvey..couples

2004-12-26T22:01:00.000-08:00

helo..i am soo happi.yet sad..todae is my bro's birthdae lah..i did a pillow for him but i dun know whether he will like it anot..actually i got a lot to say to hi wan but there is no right time and place..really..i never felt soo bad before until his birthdae lor..i really wan him to be happi and now i am sad..i feel very insecure at times but i have no choice maybe when school reopen i will be happier..whenever i see my bro i always wanted to talk to him but we will be like stranger and the conversation means nothing after all...now adaes i am very depress and really wanting to find sumone to talk to i cannot find anyone to be wif..examples my fren went overseas yet to cum back parents dun understand and they are busy too..i dun wan to talk liao..this makes me feel worse..
song reco.jay chou..jie kou
翻着我们的照片想念若隐若现
去年的冬天我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见
来不及听见你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我就算是我不懂能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果我也能够随
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容沉默是因为包容
如果要走请你记得我如果难过请你忘了我
really hope you all can see it because it is in chinese...
bibi..

2004-12-21T19:30:00.000-08:00

hey frends nowadaes i did not update my blog cause very sian liao todae i only wan to prove the fact that i and duncan realtionship can work out..u will think i am mad hahahah..yes i am...
check this out:When Aries and Virgo come together in a love match, they may think at first that they have nothing in common and nothing to learn from one another. This relationship takes time to develop as each partner must learn to understand where the other is coming from. Aries and Virgo can seem like total opposites: While Aries is brash, dominant and aggressive, always jumping into new things and almost always impatient, Virgo is detail-oriented and quiet, even shy, and works patiently toward long-term goals. Aries's energy is fiery and impetuous while Virgo's is much slower and more grounded. It's these very differences, however, that can teach Aries and Virgo so much, once they just look beneath one another's surfaces to see what lies beneath.

Early in the relationship, Aries and Virgo may see nothing but one another's faults. Virgo thinks Aries is way too brash, and Aries thinks Virgo is extremely fussy. But if they focus on one another's strengths instead, they'll discover a great deal. Aries teaches Virgo about fun and excitement, about the spontaneity that is often missing in Virgo's life. Virgo teaches Aries patience and attention to detail, the knowledge that the little things -- and moments -- are important too. Aries can teach their Virgo lover to take things less seriously. Virgo can teach Aries to be polite and value hard work.

Aries is ruled by the Planet Mars and Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury. Aries wants to rush out and fight without wasting time preplanning or strategizing. Conversely, Virgo wants to analyze everything and work out all the details before acting. These are such opposite approaches that strife can result. Both Signs must make a conscious effort to learn from one another's method rather than letting their partner's natural rhythm bother to the point of distraction.

Aries is a Fire Sign and Virgo is an Earth Sign. Where Aries is all fiery impetuosity, Virgo is grounded practicality. Virgo weighs all the options before devoting any serious effort, while Aries simply sees what they want and dives in! This is true both in career and in personal relationships -- which can be something of a stumbling block. If Aries has decided it's Virgo they want, they might be frustrated for some time to come, waiting for Virgo to make up their mind about whether the relationship is a good idea.

Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Virgo is a Mutable Sign. Virgo doesn't need to be the leader or the boss; they're glad to follow another's suggestion once they decide it's a viable one. Aries, on the other hand, wants to make those suggestions -- every time. This is a beneficial dynamic if these two Signs are working as a team toward a common goal.

What's the best aspect of the Aries-Virgo relationship? Their great effectiveness as a team -- business or personal. Their personalities, opposite in so many ways, MADE FOR A HIGHLY COMPLEMENTARY RELATIONSHIPS...
MOVIE RECO.KUNG FU HOSTLE..
BYE..
brother's birthdae is cuming..27 dec

2004-12-15T19:59:00.000-08:00

hey..everyone.really feel very bored..my great grandmother just dead and i really feel appi for her because she is 95 years old and had stroke.she was in bed for about 2 years. i really think that human is very weak and easily get beaten down...why. i really wish to ask sumone why..
this week i have been through a lot..i keep thinking if i dun marry..what would i do when i turn old...will my frens still will be beside me or they have their own life to lead on..i am very scared of lonely..and i scared of nights..evrything felt soo insecure.what should i do..ezit call sumone to talk when they all got husband and husband ask them who is more important and obviously is hushband then wat should i do..
i want to delicate a song to my frens: kiss frm a rose.
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grave
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.

i think is ery meaningful and hope we all will find a way to read it..
bye..a lover gets lonely...

2004-12-07T18:36:00.000-08:00

hi..singapore is hot..i heard a news from mtv asia hit list they said that blue-duncan and lee actually wan to pass the scanning check point or sumthing in paris but because their belt...therefore got the "tee"sound then they were force to take out their belts..duncan did it but lee protested because he scared that pants will fall..but in the end he did..then they were ask to take out their boots but they both protested then the police confiscated their passport..
lee BROKE DOWN INTO TEARS..
wow! i find that he is very funny..
why because they are singersthey should be scared by the poloce wat..

talk abt me..ha..actually sad..missing new york alot...i think i miss new york more than singapore..but too bad..i am a singaporean..
new york have great christmas spirit..no body cares abt work now..all shop for christmas..soo fun..at this time store were on sale and wat children like clothes ,shoes and stuff..parents will buy for them..
i love christmas..
love pipi
thanz lord i found the thing i wan..to find
song reco."Fly"

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of your yesterday.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

All your worries, leave them somewhere else,
Find a dream you can follow,
Reach for something, when there's nothing left,
And the world's feeling hollow.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

And when you're down and feel alone,
Just want to run away,
Trust yourself and don't give up,
You know you better than anyone else,

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of yesterday,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try,
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

Any moment, everything can change.

2004-12-03T06:24:00.000-08:00

hiii...frens i am back...hahaha..I LOVE NEW YORK SOO THE MUCH CAN!!!!
the life of new yorkers rocks...i really avery thing there..maybe sumtimes i will miss frens and relatives but i will wan to live there..
things that i like:
i like z100..it is the radio station..
the food there..dunkin'donut
large coke that is small for them in mac donald's
they will always play the mariah carey...
the all i want for christmas is you
the weather there rocks very well..collinng not snowing but nice weather
when i come back i sweat like mad..
lovely christmas spirit
everybody spend money on christmas present..
cool..days i spend in the outlet shps...i spend quite alot..
things there are too expensive.

things that i hate:
i dun like the toilets because the gap from door to door are very big u can see people inside from outside..
things there are expensive cannot spend much
ya..and bois there are not really cute
bacause i stay at manhattan then alot of ppl are those working office man..
too formal for me
i saw one at the airport in singapore very handsome i cannot take t..
but i was to ugly because i jus get down frm the plane..whole oily like shit..
when i come back i heard about the result of the singapore idol...
taufik batisah..
hahha..i knew it will be him.

all i wan for christmas is..++++..u guess..
but i really wan to find the battery charger for the camera..i really wish i could find find.lord help me..
i am having "jet lack" spleepy now..bibi
zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzz

2004-11-23T05:57:00.000-08:00

hey i am here in new york...hahaha...wondering why i can send in entry right....i am using someone else computer....that why...i am sending in the lyris of dangeruosly in love...

I love you... I love you... I love youBaby I love youYou are my lifeMy happiest moments weren't completeIf you weren't by my sideYou're my relationIn connection to the sunWith you next to meThere's no darkness I can't overcomeYou are my raindropI am the seedWith you and God, who's my sunlightI bloom and grow so beautifullyBaby, I'm so proudSo proud to be your girlYou make the confusionGo all awayFrom this cold and mixed up worldI am in love with youYou set me freeI can't do this thingCalled life without you here with meCause I'm Dangerously In Love with youI'll never leaveJust keep lovin' meThe way I love you loving meAnd I know you love meLove me for who I amCause years before I became who I amBaby you were my manI know it ain't easyEasy loving meI appreciate the love and dedicationFrom you to meLater on in my destinyI see myself having your childI see myself being your wifeAnd I see my whole future in your eyesThought of all my love for yousometimes make me wanna cryRealize all my blessingsI'm gratefulTo have you by my sideEvery time I see your face My heart smilesEvery time it feels so goodIt hurts sometimesCreated in this worldTo love and to holdTo feelTo breatheTo love youDangerously in loveCan't do this thingI love you , I love you, I love youI'll never leaveJust keep on loving meI'm in love with youI can not doI cannot do anything without you in my lifeHolding me, kissing me, loving meDangerouslyI love youDangerously in love

by the way i miss lots of band practice how????die la...nvm...
wish me have a pleasant stay here then..
jy i know u wan to go finland liao ezit...haha..i wish u too..
in love wif duncan..

2004-11-17T19:41:00.000-08:00

hi.nowadays i did not update my blog because sumtimes no time or very sian mah...ok.i news that i know long time ago and wanna tell..mtv next year will be helding at bangkok.why..it hurts man..always when i prepare to go and i cannot or it will cancel and held at other countries...why jus give me one more try man..pls.(but never)ok let talk abt sumthing..ELSE...abt blue.hahah..this is their new song..curtain falls song..
i love this song but i scared that they would break up..because the lyrics say soo.no la actually not but i can sense sooo..i can sense it sooo strong...
i dun know how...if they break up..really..and my fren say that duncan have a girlfren and is pregnant..when i heard the news i feel like puking..why...duncan i love u alot one...if the news is truth u make alot of ppl sad u know....i delicate the song..dagerously in love from beyonce...to duncan...bye
song reco:curtain falls..yesh
[Duncan]
We come from humble beginnings and
Who could have guessed it when
You sit and doubt it and
Things aint all that bright
But we made it though the night
It's like a game of truth or dare
If you can make it here
You'll make it anywhere
That's what we've been told
But the stories getting old

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We started out many years ago
No one will ever know
How far we've really come
Since we walked away
And no more words to say

[Antony]
And we made a lot of sacrifice
Undid a lot of ties
Fought a lot of fights
To get where we are now
Just don't ask me how

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
In the script of my life

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

2004-11-09T22:04:00.000-08:00

best recommendation..!!!duncan james duet wif keedie is out long ago but the cd is out now..wat iew i prayed for hours to get to hear the song for once i am really excited actually i was about to sleep liao but theni turn the channel to mtvasia(channel20)my goodness and i heard to song i nearly fall when i goo and on it louder..i think lord had heard my prayers..it is sooo believable..can u believe it????i ever thought tat i got a chance to hear them sing..
duncan if u got a chance to cum into my blog...i jus wanna say sumthing to u..that is i really love u sooo much and i think ur voice did melt my heart soo much soo that i cannot even believe wat i am doing...the concert that ur all have in singapore i went really really fantistic...really..dun think that singapore is not hyper(maybe at times)but they are good and gals are hot..right(jy)hahah no matter wat i will support u till the end..i am from singapore..i will fly to england and enjoy your performance there i will wait for me....ppl ask me who will u wan if u wan ahusband the ppl who know sure will know of course its u...hahah..dun be jealous ppl..(i know duncan but he dun know me)..hahah...support him to the fullest...
nice sexy low and dark voice./sound.
lyrics of i believe my heart:by keedie and duncanWhenever i see your face, the world dissappears,
All in a single glance of, revealing,
You smile and i feel as though, ive known you for years,
How do i know to trust what im feeling.

I believe my heart, what else can i do,
When every part of every thought leads me straight to you,
I believe my heart, theres no other choice,
For now whenever my heart speaks, i can only hear your voice.

A lifetime before we met, has faded away,
How did i live a moment without you,
You dont have to speak at all, i know what you'd say,
And i know every secret about you.

I believe my heart, it believes in you,
Its telling me that what i see is completely true,
I believe my heart, how can it be wrong,
It says that what i feel for you i will feel my whole life long.

I believe my heart, it believes in you,
Its telling me that what i see is completely true,
And with all my soul i believe my heart,
The portrait that it paints of you, is a perfect work of art.

this song is origined by the woman in white....duncan if u see this pls tag..ppl pls dun prank me...hah..i love u i love u..

2004-11-05T22:46:00.000-08:00

hihi' happiest thing happen to me.i think i am going overseas..(dunno where)..haha...i want to thans my fren here..LIM JUNYING.she is a fren i like soo much.she is soo wonderful...she help me put the picture of duncan up..oh my goodness.soo nice can..really i am very happi.a huge surprise....really.thans sia..
actually i love a song..dou jiang you tiao...by wayne lin jun jie..
lyrics:He chun bai de dou jiang
Shi chun bai de la man
Wang zhe ni
Ke ai lian tan
He ni chun zhen de mo yang

Wo sha sha dui ni xiao
Shi ni you chong jie yao
Ni shuo wo
Jiu xiang you tiao
Hen jian tan que hen mei hao

Wo zhi dao ni he wo jiu xiang shi dou jiang you tiao
Yao yi qi chi xia qu
Wei dao chai hui shi zhui hao
Ni shu yao wo de sha xiao
Wo shu yao ni de yong bao
Ai qing jiu shi yao zhe yang ta chai bu hui dan tiao
Wo zhi dao you shi hao
Ye shu yao chao chao nao nao
Dan shi zhong Ye chi dao
Zhi you ni dui wo zhui hao
Dou jiang li bu kai you tiao
Rang wo ai ni ai dao lao
Ai qing jiu shi yao zhe yang ta chai xing fu mei hao

Wo zhi dao dou zhi dao ni zhi dao ni dou zhi dao
Hao bu hao bie tou xiao xiao rang wo zhi dao (jiu hao)

Wo he wan re dou jiang
Que nian zhe hai xiang yao
Ni chi wan jing huang you tiao
Ai qing you yao zai fa hsiao

if next time i have a boy fren i wish he will sing this song to me.i really wish..if he sing really nice..i will want to marry him.(maybe he dun even wan me)hahahaha..todae go for band.i am very sad not because of band is my teeth is a decay teeth but after that imake aready then now pain again...wat liao.how like this..lord pls help..u can let the weak to stand.the blind to see..nowcan u help me cure my teeth let it be the healthy teeth...my fathers wan also..because of the nerves of the teeth..thats why...
father help both of us..maybe we like to eat but dun torture us like this lord...pls..have mercy on us..thans..
your daughter,
pamela tan
song recommendation:duo jiang you tiao and chu ni yi wai...
pls..thans..cure me.heal.and guide me

2004-10-30T02:33:00.000-07:00

yayayah...todae my school has a fair.st.sational fair..we all use use coupon to buy things and my frned leave 20 over dollars in my bag said that she will collect it..but in the end she did not lor..i need to deliever to her some more.todae there are a lot of ppl.but couples too..some are compatiable but some are not..i am very sick these couple really SICK...maybe because i am jealous but i dun know la...sian lor looking at them hugging each other....goosebumps cuming up..eu...i spend all my money and is like $30 not a lot lah..everybody is talking all these stuff abt me, why they can't let me leave...(frm my prerogative)hahah i like this sentence.really cool
they dun really understand..i am watching the wade robson project i felt that he is very talented...i start to fall in love wif him..hahah but he seems very pessimistic abt his life.dun know la..i want a guy tt i nice maybe love at first sight (grin)hahhahah i dun think i will get a boyfrend lor..even my frend taller than me also have not found a boy fren...(dun get angry..the tall gal)
i will want to recommend this song:(lyrics)
"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
...the end..

i really love this song because i felt they wrote this very well and really very meaning get a chance and listen to this song...

the sad me..welcome to my life

2004-10-28T01:15:00.000-07:00

haaha...todae is my most happiest dae maybe.because i got second in class.i am sooo happy..i just think that god is always be by my side i am very happi..i was the shark tale liao..hahaha..i thnk it is not bad..but i think the animation is great...i like missy elliot in that show...at the last part...is sooo a like lor..i am very happi but yet sad..beacause i can not get the average marks tt i want.jy will surely say tt i am not contented...but i am very happi because of the position and not the marks...understand..i thought i would in the top ten but not second...i thought never be second one..i love to be superior and not inferior..i am inferior of my weight..thats why i cannot get low marks..if not my father and mother even relatives will look down on me..my cousins are like doctors or study in votoria all in good school and me i am a sec 5 student i am very inferior when i met them sooo wat i get high position in class..??this would not help much...

just hope that ppl will understand me..especially my frens....shark tale has a moral..be honest.(actually i dun know but i think it is)hahaha..my mum promise me if i get in top ten she willsew for me a skirt..wooowowow..her sewing is the best..no la.but i like it...cause she seldom help me sew nowadae..

that all for todae...song reco.car wash..

2004-10-22T22:03:00.000-07:00

hihi....long time did not blog liao...reading "wade robson" blog..yesterdae(dun know whether is real or fake)...ya...i think i felt for him...he is same as me in same ways like wrting very pessimistic stuffs inside the blog..although seeing his great moves inside the tv but i did not know tt his is sooo....(a sad person)a lot of trouble i really get bored wif thing nowadaes i dun know la..maybe exams is over get more relax and feel tt sumthings is gone...

now alone in the room feeling a bit cold not really but jus a bit...sumthngs is bothering me but i really dun know wat or how to express it out...why??help me..wat love nowadaes means..ezzit jus play wif each others feeling or...really care for the ones you like .may not be wif him or her but wish her the best...i am confused..

actually i am having toothache i am taking care of my teeth but i jus dun know why it will still have tooth decay happening...in this world i really scared of three aches:tooth,stomach and head...realy..not faking..i am really scared of it.....by the way can anyboby who cum in to this blog can tell me where to fing duncan's new singles..(duncan frm blue)i believe my heart.i have been searchng for very very very long..liao...sick lah..ezzit not selling in singapore...i really wan to listen the song tt he sang wif a gal..name keddie...why the gal is not me...i really hate it sooo much lor..if isnot nice i will then..lol....understand?if not i also will still listen..
biibii..
love

2004-10-11T22:55:00.001-07:00

hihihi...hahaha..actually todae i am still having in my exams.. really gone case liao...my fren jy sure ask me to shut up...but i really think tt this exam is not easy..i still have a lot of points to write for my social studies..i dun know why i am spending time on my source base tt long lor..really this time round how am i gonna face my parents??really i am really scared..really scared that i will retain lor..howhowhowhowhow....iof i really retain i really wish tt god will bring me to my heaven home.even though i really dun want to die sooo early but how am i gonna face my parents and relative..they have expectations of me.i did try hard but i hjust do not have enough time to write when teacher say pens down i am still panicking wanting to write my conclusion for my ss...of course dun have time to check my paper..my fren even cry .... shall not tell who because she did not have time to write the conclusion..actually me too....really i did really write to the point...the marker tt makes the paper i soo terrified..

ppl may be studying now...ppl ask me how was my fair..i jus say one word...FAIL..I AM STILL DREAMING WANTING TO GAT IN top five..IT IS ALLLLL JUS BULLSHIT...i lookdown on myself....really i wish i can do better but i cannot...my chemistry i found out tt i did wrongly lor and the question is i know how to do want lah..wat lew..

may god bless me ... lord u are my source of strength..
song recommendation:he is able..

2004-10-09T22:33:00.001-07:00

helphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelp....my goodness tomoro i am having exams liao..howhowhwhowhowhow...i am very nervous lah..i am going dead liao...i cannot even goo out now..i am so scared liao...maybe is i did not be fully prepare before the period i am very nervous..is i think my first ever time u know..my room is like.. very dirtyand i sleep in yesterdae first time or maybe is always lie this i really want to reach my target u know...i am very siao.now my head is really blank y=x+c..driving me crazy..hget out right now man..exam slower man.or rather get it over and done wif..
how my frend are you all "piaing"i am diying suffocated...study of ewat.my father ask me to go out but i rejected i really cannot...buti tink i am hardworking but is not enough..
a word for god..heavenly father , your daughter, me really cannot absorb aready i am really going dead i wish that the paper is easy if not "gone case"i work that much maybe u cannot feel it but lord i tried my best if i can't scored how?? i also do=un know how..i worked so hard is not even for me i really want to prove to my parents that i can do it but now??? i really cannot take in anymore...i am in sec 3 next year n level..i put my word first....lord if i cannot get in to to top 10...i wish that u can bring me up to heaven ...i cannot face my parents and anybody..maybe not u too..u gave me godd oppunitiy to study but i did not cherish i am very STUPID..SUCH AN IDIOT..i am a FOOL.not insulting ur creation but really i think i am very stupid.... (dun wan to say anyting liao..lord i really wish let me hae the determination)trust in u...
"HAVE FAITH IN GOD,WHATEVER ASK FOR IN PRAYER,BELIEVE THAT IS ALREADY RECIEVED, AND IT WILL BE YOURS"THERE WILL BE MIRACLEWHENU BLIEVE..LORD I REALLY BELIEVE IN IT..help me..save my soul...

2004-10-05T08:24:00.000-07:00

to dae is a happi dae..haha.teachers are not in class although wehave workseets to do but i feels better without teacher..now is 1130..i am feeling sleepy but i wish to blog.. i am guilty for not studying i wish time dun pass soo fast or maybe go back to the pass few daes..actually i am in a delimma..i really that exams is over and i can relax..but unfornuately not..todae i am gonna recommend you guys a song.."my boo"usher featuring alicia keys...i love that song alot man!!hehe...maybe the title a bit wierd but the song is really nice..lord i know i am not hardworking enough and i know i cannot expect u much more than what i deserve i really want u to let me be more determine to study i am still i the mood of playing..well maybe not but definitely not in the mood of studying!!
lyrics-my booThere's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

It's like remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew
You were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

2004-09-28T23:02:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo...todae is a sad dae.dun know why i write sooo badly for my chinese test...and dun know why my frens at the end of the dae "dao" me.and those who know me know tt i dun like ppl to "dao" me wan la..and she is one of my very good frens..tell me wat i have done wrong lah...anyway todae quite bad...at first the dae is not bad but until the ending of the dae is like shit..very tired liao...eating dumplong when typing this..i dun know whether my fren will read this a not la..jus wanna say sumthing..i know tt u are not that petty one.must have sumthing that i have made u want to annoy me...hoi old fren i have been with u for 3years lah..we also have been through sooo much lor..i know u and other fren of my become very goooood her name is s!@?#$#..maybe u cannot tell..but i know.i dun mind but can u spare a though for me..hello i think u always share things wif her.go out wif her..and study wif her..always never ask me whether want to go..even though sometimes i want to go because of u did not ask me i did not dare to say i wantto go....i am aery jealous gal...jkjkjk..maybe sumtimes too straight forward and i hurt u that much i will try to change..selfish too!!!i know but all my frens are very straight forward maybe u dun like it..
u know when sometimes u cry it hurts so much that i dun know what to say...the blue concert is nice not only the concert it is also the gal i go wif is u..it made sooo fun.....(i am very straight.my husband is duncan never change!!!)talking about soo many things..lastly jus wanna say sorri...(i might not be a good writer but hope u will understand..)
by what's love...
to jy..wish to be frens forever...
song recomendation:oldies- to be with you by mr big..

2004-09-25T02:33:00.000-07:00

hiii..blue fan and frenz..i cannot stand them anymore i am too happ to goo to their concert liao..wat liew i hate the westerners lor..sicko can.blue only kiss them lah..whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy..why not me anstheygve one of a bithdae girl a kiss sia..the concert is jus4 days after my bisthdae sia if not i can go up there liao...kao pei lor..the girls standing beside me andjy are so sluty can? like shit can..the concert can say is superb.really must go.but have many bad points too. they cannot control the audience and singaporeans i also can't stand them some jus sit down therelike listening to a classical musical like that..wat liao..jus cannot stand them..the whole hall only some are excited and others like bo chap the hall is actually soo dead lor..please get a life can????blue also..only kiss those ang mohs..sicko lor..they pulled down their pants andsaw their briefs only...hai yo.like this only i think ifis in their own country i think they will strip liao...hahahah...i also dun want them to strip ..if they want to strip i must be the front one...because i want to take something frm them mah..hhahahah jkjkjkjk...the only thing i prove is that westernsingers can really sing they sing live ot like others...only can dance not sing..not alll cannot but mostly..never mind..i needa good rest..
song recommenation.of course frm blue..signed sealed delivered i am yours..soo sad i like ths song but they did not sing..they are hot mamas...singaporeans boooo!!!
see ya bibi...
blue rockz like heaven...jkjkhahahah

2004-09-21T03:15:00.000-07:00

song recommendation:zhi zhan zhi shang-youths that ends the war.
this song is so sadand meaningful...listen and look at the lyrics...
by the way band ended....yeah...on my birthdae...(sort of)..i am loving it..blue i am coming..liao...wait for me i will sing unchain melody to you..
chinese:光輕如紙張
guang qing ru zhi zhang
translation:Light - is as light as a piece of paper

光散落地方
guang san luo de di fang
Light – the place where it lands on

光在掌聲漸息中它慌忙
guang zai zhang sheng jian xi zhong ta huang mang
Light - it hurries while the applause is fading

她在傳唱不堪的傷
ta zai chuan chang bu kan de shang
She is singing around the intolerable wound

腳本在台上演出最後一場
jiao ben zai tai shang yan chu zui hou yi chang
The script is on the stage performing the last scene

而全村的人們在座位上
er quan cun de ren men zai zuo wei shang
While everyone from the village is sitting in their seats

靜靜的看時間如何遺棄這劇場
jing jing de kan shi jian ru he yi qi zhe ju chang
Seeing silently how time can abandon this theatre

戰火弄髒她的淚光
zhan huo nong zang ta de lei guang
Flames of war have dirtied her tears

誰在風中吵著吃糖
shei zai feng zhong chao zhe chi tang
Who is asking for candies in the wind

這故事一開始的鏡頭灰塵就已經遮蔽了陽光ㄅㄧㄤˋ
zhe gu shi yi kai shi de jing tou hui chen jiu yi jing zhe bi le yang guang biang
In the first scene in beginning this story, dust has already covered the sunlight -biang- (1)

恐懼刻在孩子們臉上
kong ju ke zai hai zi meng lian shang
Fear has been carved on the children's faces

麥田已倒向戰車經過的方向
mai tian yi dao xiang zhan che jing guo de fang xiang
The wheat fields have already fallen in the direction the combat tank has passed

蒲公英的形狀在飄散
pu gong ying de xing zhuang zai piao san
The shape of the dandelion is dispersing

它絕望的飛翔
ta jue wang de fei xiang
It is flying hopelessly

她只唱只想
ta zhi chang zhi xiang
She only sings, only thinks

這首止戰之殤
zhe shou zhi zhan zhi shang
This song of stopping the casualties of war

惡夜燃燭光
e ye ran zhu guang
Light a candle in the fierce night

天破息戰亂
tian po xi zhan luan
Stop the mess of the war when the day breaks

殤歌傳千里
shang ge chuan qian li
Song of the casualty is passed down a thousand miles

家鄉平饑荒
jia xiang ping ji huang
Homeland is empty and hungry

天真在這條路上跌跌撞撞
tian zhen zai zhe tiao lu shang die die zhuang zhuang
Being naive on this road falling and bumping around

她被芒草割傷
ta bei mang cao ge shang
She is grazed by awn grass

孩子們眼中的希望是什麼形狀
hai zi men yan zhong de xi wang shi shen me xing zhuang
What is the shape of hope in the children's eyes

是否醒來有麵包當早餐再喝碗熱湯
shi fou xing lai you mian bao dang zao can zai he wan re tang
Is it waking up and having bread for breakfast then drinking a bowl of hot soup

農夫被燒毀土地跟村莊終於拿起槍
nong fu bei shao hui tu di gen cun zhuang zhong yu na qi qiang
The farmer finally picks up his gun because of the destroyed land and village

她卻慢慢習慣放棄了抵抗
ta que man man xi guan fang chi le di kang
But she slowly gets used to giving up defense

孩子們眼中的希望是什麼形狀
hai zi men yan zhong de xi wang shi shen me xing zhuang
What is the shape of hope in the children's eyes

是否院子有鞦韆可以盪口袋裡有糖
shi fou yuan zi you qian qiu ke yi dang kou dai li you tang
Is it being able to play on the swings in the yard and having candies in their pockets?

刺刀的光被仇恨所擦亮在遠方野蠻
ci dao de guang bei chou hen suo cha liang zai yuan fang ye man
The light from the bayonet is sharpened by revenge being barbaric in a distance

而她卻微笑著不知道慌張
er ta que wei xiao zhe bu zhi dao huang zhang
But she just smiles and doesn't know how to fluster

2004-09-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

hhi.actually nothing to say..but jus want to say that i cut my hair liao...maybe because of blue concert but i dun think so.lor...i dun think is nice la..sad sia i also dun know how lor..
now my feeling is:
the lyrics of endless road..
now my this hair style very hot la..now scalp is sweaty..
and very heavy too..
actually my birthdae is coming liao..hahah i am super hapi.but nothing special wan..i wan a cake and three wishes:
one is private
second is to be slim
third is whole family healthy and whealthy..hahah..will my dreams come true.

2004-09-03T18:08:00.000-07:00

hi..frends..daes are getting boring now a days la...i dun know wat to do sia...although holidaes are here i dun think i am happi...dun know why la.todae becoz of the cluster arts thing i am still here u know..i need to reach school at abt 10.30 am..i feel kind of tired lah..i really dun know how can i feel happi.maybe after the blue concert i will be ok liao..REALLY MAYBE..i knwo wat is the reason liao...my chemistry get very low lor...wat liao i wan to cry liao you know..why i like the song "i believe" becoz the lyrics is very meaningful..love keeps lifting me high...
i want to let u all read i poem...hehehe
A dam of emotions
Behind the flood gates is the river tears
Its water level rises as a storm rages inside
The dams walls start to swell as it holds the
river behind
Then the flood gates open
And the river tears flows down your cheeks
The breakwall of tissues can't hold back its flow
It drips off your chin into tiny puddles at your
feet
A waterfall formed by emotions
That needed to be released
whose waters flow until the pressure has ceased
Then the flood gates close
The river tears behind them still at ease
All that remains of the waterfall
Is the tiny puddles at your feet
And the tissues used to absorb
The overflow from the river tears
sad right???..hehe i dun know where i get it wat la..but i think is quite meaningful sia..
bandbadbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbadbandbbandbandbandbandbandbandbandbadandbandbandbandbandBAND.
SIAN i jus feel tat i am under stress not only band la and some other things..jus pray for me and wish me good luck..
movie recommendation:garfield..he is soo cute lor..hahah
bibi.lots of love.pam

2004-08-31T22:06:00.001-07:00

hiii..todae i want to write about my frens like stephanie,rebekah,junying...stephanie first..she is a very good euphonium player and faithful to band..sorri to say that she do not have any responsible now..ke lian..but be happi la..is the teacher blind..is their lost okok..??she is a cute gal..recomended to all guys in the world haha..jkjk..she is in the express stream and planning to go overseas and study...now she is very sad coz she is missing olympic lor...actually me too.missing those swimming events..i think i am missing my father also because he is in athens now u know..wat liao.so super sad lor..okok come back..she is abt (dun knwo whose height)but shorter than me a little..she is good in english..always correct ppl's english..she is a good frend of mine... she taught a lot of things lor..really she is a good gal..helpful and kind..haha..stop here.change ppl ...rebekah..little to say she is knid and helpful la...always like to hammer my head jus becauze i dun like li jia wei...and by the way li jia wei is not single aredy hahah..susilo propose to her...wat liao no comments one lor..i just dun really supporting her..shortgun wedding...hehehe.i jus dun know why u like her sooo much i rather like michael phelps....hahah.(blushing.)change...talk abt junying..
first i want to say sorri to her...i talk less to her ...because some problems between the four frens...hahah..no comments too...i wan to say i really cherish the frendship between u and me..here i want to ask u are u really want to go to blue concert wif me??come on years in a lifetime.>> by the way this gal is a very tall want..call out to all tall guys too.best is korean or japanese..hahah wishing thta u will join me in the blue concert..
song reco.best frends by s club 7..an old song la.
bibi

2004-08-24T04:17:00.000-07:00

this few dae i have been watching olympics lor...the best is the swimming..and the worst is those boring events(i dun watch sooo i dun know)hahaha..i fall in love with 4 swimmers they are hoogenband, michael phelps, ian thorpe and a 15 year old guy from hungary called daniel..ohh man they are sooo hot lor...i cannot take it liao..hahah...actually i also hate i guy name yao ming...wat liao he is such a proud and arrogant pig lor...hate him to the core.. i never hate aperson till that bad lor...he think tt he is tall so can push ppl....he actually pushed a new zealander down lor...*kao pe*(in hokkien)
ezzit??i dun understand and i also dun wanna understand super proud arrogant pig dun even fit to be in the NBA lor..sickker..he is like the peacock like tt...worst tt a beast...this time round singapore did not win any medal..(^having a slight smile)i mean i thought they will get some medal...idun know la...but the table tennis gal i lee jia wei..i have no comments on her(^actually alot one lor but lazy to type)never mind i jus du like her but i dun hate her becoz i think she very *ke lian*i actually pity her la...
i love the swimmers the most lor...ian crocker too...hahah...5 timers la..power sia..hahah..
justin guarini and kelly clarkson- timeless (quite an old song but i like it)delicate toall my lovers..hahah..jkjkjk

2004-08-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

Michael Phelps....
this whole weeks i have been watching the olympic till 2 am lor.i am very sian during class always feel like sleeping.till 2.wat liao can't they start earlier.cannot stand them..the guy that i like is micheal phelps.but his is my friend's one.as the same name as me.i love the poise that they show.he is cute but the teeth is very u ...i mean the shape..can go the web site to seehim..i am very busy this few day.see ya

2004-08-14T04:34:00.000-07:00

helo.yesterdae i am very bad luck coz is 13 the fridae lor..i got six mistakes lor.i am soo sian.really sian..the badest thing is i got three test first english,maths and geo...wat liao dun say aready
my english i think my composition get out of point...first time writig compogetout of point wan lah...super bad luck lor..and in the morning i nearly late for taf.wat is the problem i really wish tt god can help me and i will pass my compo test..i dun wanna fail again can??i know my english is poor buti really dun wan always fail lor..such a sicker and now adaes i have been forgetting all my work and the things tt i hand in..i thought i lose it lor.nvm..calling out for god i really wish tt i could pass my test and frens pls pray to him for me...lots of kiss..ending here...god help me and give me wisdom...
song reco.god is in this place...by plus one..

2004-08-07T00:27:00.000-07:00

hello..mum....suddenly dun know wat to say really...sort of sian i am just waiting for the time to pass away ...i am in a half sleepy state..my maid la,she damn bad lor wat liao i jus dun know wat to say la..because i hadmy lunch abt 1 and a half then she dun letme sleep...she also helping to lose weight la...i am also trying very hard but i jus dun know how la..nvm.jus forget it..i wentto take pictures(neoprint) with rebekah on fridae..quite fun really !!we merely walking around the whole j8..phyllis u super good lor..i really wan to go for cruise andu on cruise for three daes...wat liao unfair sia.but nvm i yesterdae went to malaysia soo fair la..icum back at 1 plus that why i am super tired..playing band songs sumtimes make me sian la but i enjoyed it sumtimes really...i love the piece called irelad..let play for syf..the piece is also quite easy..(hahahah)..no la also need practice wat...sian sleep liao...
piece reco.merry widow...selections.coz i am listening to it..hahha biib

2004-07-27T23:47:00.000-07:00

hi...my frends.now a daes right i feel very sian..no goal and no pushing force at all..y???actually i also dun know la..but i really wish tt i can cope with my exams..sec 3life is sort of stress....ppl are competing wif each other..y??? is lfe mean competing..i really dun know..todae, i am not sad or wat...but i jus wanna say out my views...(not ofending ppl)...life seems very different..y different??it is becoz ppl talk less now..less communication...i mean ppl should be more sensitive right..even a dog sum ties also know how u feel if u are it owner..are we worst than animals??can we put in more feeling towards each other and not to be selfish..ppl have the right to say..i always tell my self...in this world there will not bebillions of ppl like u...ppl can also hate u like i hate singers like &$%&@$**n %#$!@&*..also wat but remember there will always a bunch of ppl who cares for u as they can be ur loved ones..i really hate ppl who compete a lot....appreciate wat god have give u..it is a pivilege to hav it..last time i use to think i am heavy.y cannot be as slim as beyonce or jennifer lopez..they are hot..!!but now i think god really let me eat...better than other children...he gave me extra more than i needed..hahaha..i am trying to slim down and wait duncan to cum s'pore..hahah..and another reason is to maintain a healty weight and lifestyle...i am trying soo can u!!
stop competing...
somg reco.ladies's night...(old song)but i'm lovin it..hahah..chilled.

2004-07-16T05:17:00.000-07:00

hi frends..todae my parent leave alone and go to thailand...actually they ask me to go wif them..but i jus dun wan to go...so surprise tt this is my first time sayingtt i am not wanting to go oversea...i have never beento thailand..hahaha....now i am very lonely..staying in my room doing nothing..it will need to last a few more nights..
i am very suck of my exam result lor..really like my maths..wat liao..soo badly done..and my english.but at least english i expected it liao...sian ahh..i relly wish to goout..or do sumthing good....
tooo sian to type liao...see ya
cd recommendation:wow worship..

2004-07-14T02:19:00.000-07:00

hihihi frends i am back...sorri for not updating my blog for so long but the reason is i jus finish my exams and jus cum back frm australia wif those band gals.i had a wonderful experience man...first my 'kawan'
in this trip is qi en. phyllis. lynette.n rebekah....sometimes joanna..we go there to attend a music festival...i am veri happi cause i saw quite a no. of cute guys...i am soo mesmerize by them...i really saw one guy tt i like soo much and i even take a pic of him..BUT it is sooo bad luck lor....my good fren...lynette...went to delete it...pic is the only thing tt i have but when she deleted it my heart really hurt..it hurt sooo much..i really like him soo much lor...how can this thing happen on me..thedaes there are wonderful..really i never wanna cum back as it is soo damn fun...
at the last night...after the presentation...the hall turn into a party/dance hall..guys and gals were dancing those sexy dance..i think i am the only gal tt dance lor..i find tt i am sort of representing smsb lor.coz..NO ONE WANT TO DANCE..THE PHYLLIS TT WAS SO MAD DIDN'T WAN TO DANCE TOO..I WAS SOO HIGH AT TT TIME..I WISH TO STAY FOREVER (AT TT MOMENT)ALL THE CONDUCTORS WAS STANDING OUTSIDE LIKE TALK TO EACH OTHER I JUS DUN KNOW WHY LOR...THEY ALSO SHOULD BE INVOLVE RIGHT...but i dun care.n on the criuse i met the guy tt i like..it is like titanic like tt u know...U JUMP I JUMP..HAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!HE IS A VOILINIST I THINK IF I AM NOT WRONG....i really wanna kill my fren liao....other days right..wre also veri happi..i wish we have more this type of trips..by the way the guy is from queensland...i think..hahaha..nvm.it is over..god i l0ve u coz u are soo GREAT...
song reco.:sheila on 7-pejantan tangguh..

2004-07-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

hey gals i am back frm australia...hahaha..i really miss the cuirsing part and the party...we when to bathurst and sydney...i am very happy and excited when i went to see the sydney opera house..not only the outside of it but also the inside..i dropped my jaws when i saw the nice hall..it is sooo much better than the esplande...i really dun feel like cuming back becoz there is soo much fun..the saddest thing is we will be having exam next week...wat liao...i really dun want lor..can't we jus cancel it..my god where u make sydney such a nice place...the first three days we were in bathurst-(that is very nice sydney)it is a very rural place the time passes slower...i like it man.the ice cream are nice..i remember.the brand of gelatissimo.is superd man.the taste is so nice.the pizza there are huge and really nice to eat...quite cheap also..i also fall in lovewif two guys there one is a loner and the other one is handsome and muscular..hahaha.but wat a petty i didn't have the chance to ask them for numbers...the feeling of going there i cannot express much really...ooo ya.i also fall in love wif a band really they are really good man...fantastic.la.i really love it soo much....my room amtes are also very funny one la..we are like mad in the night..we really lauh like siao like tt....that time is very unforgettable...nothing much but ask me anything in school ok...
song recommendation:ruslan & ludmilla..

2004-06-14T19:01:00.000-07:00

yah...hello..autally i am quite lost nowadays..i am happi tt i would be flying off..but i am unhappi coz i am cuming back three daes after school reopen..i am scared tt i cannot cope lah...the only way is to pray veri hard..this is the only way man..coz i cannot change anyway..okokok...tomoro is my mother's birthdae...every year i didn't express anything to her and now i will wrtie it on my blog...i am fornuate tt i have a good mother..alhough you sumtimes nag..but which mum dun nag right? is for our own good wat??hahahah...u gaveme all the freedom tt i wan and gave me everythingi need..i have been sad coz of my weight...u comfort me...u have said tt u arenot a good mother in coaching us but we knowtt iu hav teach us a lot..i am very grateful..when dad scold me for sooo may stupid things u will also support me maybe not always but many times sumtimes u will tell dad the secret and he cum and scold me..i hate it u know??? but u are my mum wat i can do..if its my fren...she is goin to die man..hahahah...love can lift u up and guide u on our way..
bibi..thanx...jolin..dao dai

2004-06-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

yozloagy..hiihi...ppl always ask me why i like blue..i also dun know lah..i know tt they wun know me but i jus wanna upport them to the end..i cannot say tt their songs can confont me a lot but i jus like their songs i think the breathe easy and best in me...they seems to know me very well..haha....i think i may be crazy...i know i might not know them well but at least i know tt their vioce are superb and touch my heart man....
but i only can say tt i am not fated to see them u know..coz i always wanted to see their concert...once they wanted to cum and i bought the tickets already and last moment right they say that they are not coming liao...and sooo many times i wanted to go to see mtv asia awards but i cannot..once is becoz of myfather say cannot..i cried the whole night..coz i know tt only there then i can see them wat...but i i hav not see them once..i cannot tt i am a great or good fan of them but i do buy their cds..i know is not enough but i am not fated to them soo wat i can do right?? there was once i wanted to go for their autograph section...but i cannot go becoz of my fever...aiyo i see..
i jus wanna say since i am soo unfated soo iwish the miraclewill happen and they will cum to my blog one day and they can see this message..hahah i am soo naive.
bibi..luv ya.
song recommendation:bubblin'-by blue...

2004-06-06T19:30:00.000-07:00

yo..todae is my frend jy and ET's "birthdae"but their actual birthdae is yesterdae...hahhaha...i wanna wish them a happi birthdae...i was soooo damn unlucky yesterdae coz my stupid father jus scold me unreasonably...i am scared of him.....frm small till now..i am closer to my mum.really..but sometimes my mum also veri unreasonable...sian...i woke up abt 10 plus and started typing...yesterdae i even cried lor..i am jus sad...maybe not jus that and coz of some other stupid things lah..lord..come and comfort me..i wanna forget this things tt is in my head..i wanna pass all my exam lah lord..give me wisdom...i am stupid..pls..i need determination too.
bibi...
best wishes..
sond recommenation...faithfulness

2004-06-05T02:53:00.000-07:00

yoyo...frends i jus wanna say that i am too happi liao...on thursdae..i found my lover.....hahahha...i can't tell the name but i jus wanna express it out..i am sooo happi..i'm loving it..
frends u might think tt it is very mad to write this in the blog but i really wanna to let ppl know that i sort of fall in love..dun ask me why....coz there is tooo much to say....u will not understand how i feel......hahahh
bibi.....love is all around u ....
song recommendation:songs of comic boyz...
luv ya

2004-06-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

yooo frens quite a long time did not update my blog liao...busy sia...busy doing nothing....hahaha..good right...i like the feeling man..tell your all somthing.my band conductor got married liao..but the sadest thing is he dun know how to drive a car....hahaha..sori for saying that..i like todae his style..he is nicer when he dun put jel on his hair...although is like veri tootbut is not bad looking lor...lovely....i like to attend weddings man..coz i can feel the blessing of the couple...nice right and another reason is i like to wear veri formal...is eri nice to be pretty on their wedding dinner...by the way,my cousin is goin to marry liao..good for them and on that day i will wake up early to help her..good man..i love to wake up early for those big big daes..like for chinese new year also...i am to excited that i cannot fall asleep nomatter how tired i am...
ya i love one or a chinese rock band...f.i.r maybe is not rock but very nice...i like the ni de wei xiao is superb...man.why diana did not win the american idol..it is over but i am happy for fantasia and pity diana...hai..they are both good singer but in lfe is always like this u will hav to eliminated other person...to be the one...i am looking forward to the singapore idol i think i will laugh alot when i see the auditions....
bibi
song recommendation:all f.i.r songs.

2004-05-28T02:35:00.000-07:00

yooo...frends i have one song want to strongly recommend to my frend and everyone...thissong is from tamyra gray-raindrops will fall..remember love yourself and your frends dun hurt them...
junying..i jus wanna say sorri.and u know what happen right..i am innocent i didn't mean it...by the way i am the straightest person in the world..frens that read this.......dun ever ask anything!!!good recommendation...hahah..sorri

There’s a time 4 every star 2 shine
And a place 4 every dream 2 see the light
When u have everything
U don’t need another reason 2b something

Hold on, and look to your faith
Can’t let nobody, nobody get in your way

Chorus
I walked thru the fire
Fought thru the ragin storm
Til I found the peace
That’s inside of me
I’ve got 2 b strong
I stand 4 my dreams
I was made 4 this moment
Take me as I am
Or nothin at all
I’ll keep holdin on
Raindrops will fall

Haunting echoes from a careless word
You’ll never know how much they hurt
Dreams are precious don’t you know
But they are so hard to follow

Hold on and look to your faith
Don’t let nobody, nobody get in your way

Chorus

I was taught not 2 run away
Cuz raindrops will always fall on your face
When it seems like all hope is gone
Gotta get thru the storm
B4 you can see the dawn
This is all I am
This is all I know
And I won’t never ever let go
No I won’t let go

chorus

2004-05-25T23:28:00.000-07:00

yooo frends todae i am happy yet sad...i am happy coz the st'marg idol rocks...and i am sad coz i am really let alot ppl piss off..i wan and need to say sorri to some of my frens like sabrina,rebekah,sherlyn,junying,shuwen,pamela ng,tika and maybe many more tt i didn't notice...SORRII REALY NEED YOU TO FORGIVE.i might let u piss out but u all are understanding ppl right?!
i tell u how i piss them off:
sabrina-i think i talk to her damn loud during pe time and then she is in the bad mood..sorri
rebekah-i didn't inform her that i cannot find the newsweek for her..i made her angry...sorri
sherlyn-i said that i am going to her house but i can't coz i need to go toilet..sorri
junying-i let her down by saying that i will join the idol thingy but i didn't ...sorri by the way i have reasons..
shuwen-i say that i wil go wif her for the cip trip but i rpomise sher to go wif her...sorri
pamela ng-i say that i will go wif her for the cip plus sherlyn and sharmila ...but we didn't becoz of me....SORRI PAM
tika-i say that at first i wan to go but afterwards i back out and she have to sing alone...by the way she can sing veri veri well
ppl i am sorri for wat i have done but i am really only can express in this way..
bibi
song recommndation:say goodbye by s club 7(maybe recommended before but just again lah...ok?hahhaha)i have a poor memoery...sp?

2004-05-25T04:26:00.000-07:00

sad..man i cannot take it liew la..this is the first time i feel so damn sick lor..i dun wan to stay in singapore liao of course i know that for the time being i will be there but really lah i can't take it lah...help me lord i really felt pain...inside is really rottening liao...help me lord.wat spare-tyre ...i really dun know la..i also du wan to know..pig la..it hurting lor..soo deep lor...problems happening make it bigger and bigger lor the problem
i hate it la..
too sad to write liao
bibi
song recommendation:burn by usher

2004-05-24T01:28:00.000-07:00

frends i want to tell u something....never give up sooo easily...really if u give up u will lose out alot..have a little more determination and perserve to the end...pls..never say i cannot....although i always say that but i really have my own reasons if have chances i will not wan too...i can tell i might can sing but i am not a good singer or a performer coz i am scared of alot of things...like forget lyrics,stand in a wrong position and stuff like this....hay...i really wan to perform but i really can....although i recommended this song already but i still wan to encourage those who read my blog or to my self or to frends...this song goes:submit more Yolanda Adams lyrics
They said you wouldn’t make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it’s been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…
(Chorus)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant (Oh yea)
I believe I’ll dance
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (That’s why)
That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe

(Chorus)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA…

(Music break)

Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it’s not for me
I won’t give up I’ll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo

(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)

I believe I can
I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I’ll chant
I believe I’ll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I’ll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do

end of it never give up ok.....??!!

2004-05-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

hihi...todae i went out wif my frend ,lynette....we had a lot of fun,we went to shop but wifout buying anything things and we ate lots of things,walk into branded shops wifout buying things..and people looking at us coz we and teenagers and maybe could not afford those expensive things...she is one of my good frend we noe each other for abt 3 yrs but we are quite close....this is the first time that i shop so long wif a frend...my leg is damn pain lor...but i like it man....we shop frm 11 to 5 maybe for some of you might not be long but non-stop is veri scary lor...my leg is very numb and i wanna buy a lot of things but no money, i wan my mummy to come and buy for me...todae too tired soo write so short...
biibii..
take care..
song recommendation:hao shuo hua.ren xian qi

2004-05-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

ACILLES....my goodness i love him sooo much although he is like 40 years old liao but he...in troy is sooo cute but he is like having sex wif girls...why..why???i wan him la!!!i think most gals that watch the troy would like eric..(real name)he is righteous and man..but i really fall in love ever since he acted in some show.!!!he is HOT ..i like his looks when he was having long hair..he is soo build up..i like it even though i dun like build up body.....i like his sexiness....at first i thoght that this show wouldn't be nice but in the end i fall for...brad pitt if you hav a chance to read my blog....know that someone in singapore is mad abt you....whahahaha(jus jokin)
chance topic
jy if u hav a chane to read my blog by todae i wanna say sorri coz i didn't wan to go for the idol thingy..pls forgive me...
i know i am a chicken la but if u can sing and i wan u to sing u always won wan to sing in front of someone...like the whole school...sorri i faked you..i cheated your feeling a lot of time really sorrie forgive me...pls..
song recommendation:troy sound track by josh groban..

luv ya

2004-05-18T23:43:00.000-07:00

todae...y gals..i have done my homwwork before updating my blog...i am listening to songs that i dun really like...is the unbreak my heart but i really think that the lyrics is really sad man!!!but i am not attached so i won't find it veri sad la..i let your see the lyrics:
(chorus)Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
(verse)
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Don't leave me in all this pain
aniway my maid love it...i think she went through alot that's why she loves this song so much
why love is soo pitiful one....i dun like lar...like shakespears the story alot are veri touching and sad..can't take it liao la...
me...i am still going to sydney...i think?!?!i really dun know la..
let nature take its course..
bibi
song recommendation:ting bu dao by mayday

2004-05-18T04:30:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo gals..my close frends..i found out one super nice song called i don't wanna know...of course it is not a rock kind of music but is rap and r&b..it is nice u know..y talking abt music,i have band practice now...tues,fri and sat..sian..but i really love music...really i fall in love since i was veri small..i first listen t chinese songs and then english ones then back to chinese...ahhahahaha i now can feel more for chinese songs...i a veri pestimistic coz of all those sad songs la..but i really enjoy listening it..everyone might be wondering why anowadaes...i keeep updating my blog..coz people that know me know tt i am a veri sian and lazy gal..actually i jus want people to know wat i like or dislike or some personal stuffs!!!!!
my skys are dark never be brighten again coz everyone in the earth leave me...as i look out of thewindow everythig seems veri dark although it is in the day time...my goodness.why?people dun treat me they usually do..worse everything or peole seems to change alot...my close frends seems to be veri far...they are close to me but their hearts seems very very far away...have they change or me....
i don't wanna know
If you're playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if you're creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know...
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself(taken frm lyrics)

but telling everyone i am still the corny one never change at all!!!hahahahahaa
song recommendation:chinese song frm jolin(ling meng cao de wei dao)
luv ya still.....ok?!!!!!

2004-05-17T02:58:00.000-07:00

hey....letter to junying.yoyo gal..wat guy u see online and u fall in love wif him.???and said that u will show me..a japanese guy right??..ya..it is good that u pointed out my bad points and good one..i mean i am happi..i want u to be honest wif me..really.u know wat jus now,i watch the show win a date wif tad hamilton....i freak out.!!!u know wat am i think of..win a date wif any of the BLUE members..and i would be the first one to get heart attack..(i also dun mind wif brad pitt!!!ahhhahahaha)and when i watch the show i was laughing through out the whole show..it is like practically me and duncan only???!!!shameful right...then my whole face turn red!!i love the feeling man..if i could go on a date wif duncan..then my life is done..but when i know that whether he is good or bad...i will not want him coz he might not be as good as i thought of him...but i tell u love is blind..tooo blind!!ahahhaaahha...
yur good points:lovely,talkable,socialble,cute,nice,sexy,willing to play a fool wif me,passionate in drawing,willing to help(sometimes)and other small things!!(good in english)
bad points:bully me,love to tie yor hair,get angry quite easily,and many BIG things...(your chinese need more improvement!!hahaahahhhahah)
but luv ya...no bad meanings..ok takeit easy.
bibibibibi
pam

2004-05-14T02:51:00.000-07:00

hatehatehatehatehatehate....it is fair????MY GOD...i can't take it ...wat liao!!!jasmine sucks sooo much lor..she is so bitch ok??this is the first time i call someone a bitch....she veri hounoured right..JASMINE TRIAS YOU AARE A SHITY ASS....U REMEMDBER U MAKE ME CRY COZ U DON;T DESERVE IT ....HELLO..IS AMERICANS THERE..???I DUN THINK SO...CAN;T U HEAR TT JASMINE DESERVED TO GO OUT..MY GOODNESS!!!WHY LATOYA IS THE ONE TT GET OUT...I KNOW BECAUSE ALL OF YOU ALL GO FOR HER LOOOKS.FALL IN LOVE WIF HER RIGHT.SHE GIVE U ALL A FLYING KISS THEN U ALL FALL IN LOVE WIF HER RIGHT...WANNA support her right???!!!!!
all the american listen out..she is not an american and are u all races ???!!!allthe supporters of jasmine dun knowhow to listen ..pls dig your ears before voting..latoya is a talent...in my heart,she will shine always...she is the one man...all irrational supporter are fools man...hahahaha
jpl also rocks but he has been voted out.....sooo sad...now i wish tt fantasia will win...or not diana..they are the best singers now man..love ya latoya...
jasmine remember tt someone in the end of the universe dislike you...
specia delication to latoya:south boarder-rainbow..

2004-05-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

a letter to a heartless(joking!!!!) fren of my called phyllis loe...i thought tt she will write a letter to me but it turn out to be.!sigh^i jus dun know how can she be sooo bad to me???indeed sheis a funky,cute,silly and havin some rare mental-problems but she is a good frend of my always cheers me up..ai yotodae she change to become a less active person i am so sad abt it...it made my dae after seeing her but now ..(got nothing to say)her bag was not easy to recogise but her eyes and face is easy to.i jus cannot stand her face so cute jus feel like punching her!!!!!

another letter to a heartless (joking)frend called qi en...she is also a cute small little tiny gal going to be sick because like to find ways to be slim even though she is so tiny...se is a funny ^blur blur^ kind of people..i can't stand her too. she write letter on water bottles and paper rolls..even flowers and other stuff..indeed she is a veri creative gal..and a weird one...hahahaha

other letter to my good frend called rebekah ever want me to write letter to her but she know what i want...indeed straight-forward,caring,like to laugh,slow^sometimes^and nice to talk to..good frend..coming into this school although i have met a lot of things and frend but these are all the frends i wan...
the above and those whom i write to...

some to chloe dun say i neer write to you never be sad again com on there are many things better to do than being sad...indeed a good gal..
knowing all of you is my pleasure...

2004-05-09T22:59:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo....hahaha.todae we no need to go to school but i felt really veri bored i rather go to school than stay at home or go out.by he way todae is my friend's birthdae....shuwen happi birthdae....hahahaahha u are olderthan me liao..todae i am gonna cut my hais because u just dun want to tie my hair..if i tie right i will get headache....i also dun know y?maybe in my heart lah..no exam till term 3 i jus hate it i really really rather have exam now tahn later i jus dun like to drag...
examis really exciting.but is the process only and the outcome is shocking..hahaahhhahaa.SIAN LAHHHHHHHHHH...lord help me i really wanna have a meaningful dae and notjus lying around and that's my dae...aiii yoyoyoyo..sian.
song recommendation.shou ai ni.jolin

2004-05-09T03:47:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo...todae is mohers' dae i am not a mother but i gave something to mymother and readers should not know ...to bad...HAHAHHHa...here i wanna say something to my mother:mummy thanks for raising me up and give me the best tt u could and i really appreciates it...i may let u down before ad get u angry or in to trouble but thanks for your forgiveness.......i know tt you wanna to look pretty but i tell u tt health is much more and looks soo dun ever harm yourself jus because u wanna look pretty.u are a veri understandng mother and u gave us a lot of freedom really i love ya....udid have a hard time in teaching us principles and manners.....you are the one man....i think in this world mothers are all good (xcept those who are insane or col-blooded)
thank you...
song recommendation:the nespray song..HHHAAAHAHH..

2004-05-07T20:03:00.000-07:00

7 may...my principal died in hospital...i think most of us cried because we raelly miss her..this is unexecpted i really dun know what to say it is damn sad man!!!i can't take it lah...why????she scolded me before but i think i rather see her scolding someone than not seeing her again..she is indeed a good principal..when she is here people doesn'tlike her veri much.but when she is gone people starts to miss her....why?we should cherish her from the start right?teachers cried to..
i think tt god ,the heavenly father will bring her to a paradise tt is nothing to think abt abd evrything is nice and peaceful.....school seems to have a very stroong atmosphere and we can't breathe easy..hard to think tt she is dead...everthing seems so well but...something did happen...i cried tooi think many gals will cry cause we really miss her..actually wishin tt she will come back to seee us but she did not....todae i am going to her funeral..i bought her a flower...wish tt it is her favorite one..i look outofthewindow i saw sorrow and i am missing the laughter..the loneliness is still there...
thank you
song recommendation:sugarbabes.too lost in you...